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ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴅᴛᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ʜᴀᴅʀɪᴇʟ ([personal profile] hadrielmods) wrote in [community profile] hadriel_logs2015-12-26 09:12 am

Event Log: Rage

Who: Everyone participating in the event!
What: The event log for the Rage resurrection event!
Where: All around the city
When: December 26th-January 6th
Warnings: Violence. Angry people. Temper tantrums. Possible death.


On the morning of December 26th, the landscape of the city changes subtly. Rage's temple is restored, glowing with a red light that can be seen from across the river, and at the same time Rage's power begins to influence the city. At first, it will only affect people actually inside Rage's temple, the library, or the colosseum, but over the course of the next week it will grow to blanket the city. By January 2nd, nowhere in the city is safe from this anger except for the temples of Hope and Fear.

Tempers flare. Annoyances become too much to bear. Those already angry find their anger much harder to control, and those who are usually calm find themselves growing angry over things that might otherwise be inconsequential. Sometimes, all you can think about is how much you want to slam your fist into the face of that person who just won't stop talking. Have you wanted to hand out some asskickings for awhile now? Well, the sensible part of your brain that says 'hey, maybe don't punch that guy with the sword' sure is a lot harder to listen to.

On January 4th, the armory appears, not far from Rage's temple. Inside you can find swords, spears, shields, axes, knives, and plenty of other forms of medieval-era weaponry. So now you can be that guy with the sword (if you weren't already), and get to asskicking. You definitely won't regret losing your temper when Rage's effect subsides a couple days later. Surely everyone will understand and no one will hold anything against you. We're all friends here, right?


► This log covers December 26th-January 6th.
► Feel free to make your own logs, as well!
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bekommen: (we are standing on the edge.)

jan. 3

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-05 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Lloyd, why this. Nick usually can't stand being hugged anyway - Andy was the only one who ever did, and they stopped speaking, much less hugging, well before Nick ended up in Vancouver.

She remembers Lloyd from their chat during the snowstorm, but she doesn't expect to be hugged the first time they see each other in person. She's barely able to keep from shoving him violently away from her; instead, she hisses at him through rage-clenched teeth:]


Get. The fuck. Off of me.
fervence: (raise your hand)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-07 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
[why this? because everyone needs a hug, nick, yes even you.

when lloyd recognizes the voice belonging to the body he's currently hugging his grip actually tightens for a minute, and while he might not be particularly big (he's perfectly average for his age, thanks) there's definitely some strength hiding underneath those clothes.

thankfully he pulls back only a second later to give nick a frankly beaming smile for how frantic he looked only moments earlier.
] HI! We made it through the storm! And no matter what else they try to throw at us we'll keep making it through, because thEY'RE NOT GONNA BEAT US! YOU HEAR THAT???!!!!

[and then lloyd starts... waving his fist in the air for some reason. there's no one up there lloyd, stop shouting at the sky. there's isn't even a sky up there.]
bekommen: (i'm sorry there's nothing to save.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-08 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
[She could do with more hugs, more love, more positive attention - she's lacked it all for a long time, since she was a small child, since her father died. Now, having gone without this far in life, it feels too strange, so she resists it.]

Were you dropped on your head repeatedly as a child?
fervence: (i'm talking loud not saying much)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-09 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
WHAT.

[hand dropping back down by his side and whipping around to look at nick in something approaching surprise (did he forget she was there for a moment? maybe.) and still somewhat shouting. sorry about that.]

NO, WHy do people keep asking me that? [considering] I don't think I was anyway? Dirk didn't mention anything but maybe before he found me?

[something else to ask his deadbeat space dad if he ever comes back down to earth i guess.]
bekommen: (for fear your grace should fall.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-09 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I dunno, maybe 'cause you fucking act like it?

[Seriously, who just goes around hugging people? Nick dusts off the front of her coat.]
fervence: (we're called to help our friends in need)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-11 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
How do you act like you've been dropped on your head?

[this is a real thing lloyd just asked you nick. sorry about that. and he's kind of grumbling when he asks because he might not be angry at nick but he's maybe a little frustrated at people saying things like this like he knows what they mean by it.

(and also maybe a little bit angry at kratos for leaving like that, now that he was thinking about him again)
]
bekommen: (i can't get no satisfaction.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-11 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[Christ on a bicycle, this kid. Nick barely manages to restrain the urge to facepalm hard.]

Like you've got fucking brain damage or something. Going around hugging people and asking stupid fucking questions.
fervence: (or you can start speaking up)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-12 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
[oh, oh, well he understood that at least. and now the look he's giving nick is actually sort of irritated. drink it in, nick, it's a new expression on his face for you to enjoy.]

Hugging people isn't stupid! [frowning so hard he's practically pouting and fists clenched down at his side now. he's a little tired of people calling him stupid, honestly.] And neither is asking questions when you don't understand something, not trying to learn something is stupid.
bekommen: (i'm sorry there's nothing to save.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-13 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Hugging people is stupid, kid. You know why? Because people are stupid. Getting involved with people is stupid.

[Real Talk With Nick Rivenna.]

Trust me - you're better off by yourself. I know I am.
Edited 2016-01-13 04:03 (UTC)
fervence: (honestly i wanna see you be brave)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-15 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
That's not true! [aaaaaaaaaaaaand it hardly took anything at all to have lloyd switching tracks again, because with those words he's having terrible flashbacks to conversations he had with zelos back before... everything.

he doesn't look angry anymore but he looks incredibly earnest and determined.
] Nobody is better off alone, there's nothing good about being lonely! Just because you might have had bad experiences in the past [nick hadn't specifically said so but if this is anything like the thing with zelos it's kind of a given] doesn't mean things can't be better now.

Friends are important and just because you decide you don't want or, I don't know, don't deserve any or whatever, doesn't mean people aren't going to care about you anyway! [doesn't mean lloyd isn't going to care]
bekommen: (we are standing on the edge.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-15 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[Nick narrows her eyes; her fingers tighten into fists at her sides. She cannot believe she's actually having this conversation.]

You know what friends are good for, kid? A bunch of fucking lies. Promises about always being there for you and then ditching you the second it's no longer fucking convenient.

[Because that's the way she sees it; that's what Andy did in saying they'd grown apart and were better off staying apart.]

Besides - being alone isn't the same as being lonely. You can be lonely in a room full of fucking people. I'd rather be alone.
fervence: (remember everything you hear)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-20 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[lloyd starts shaking his head and it doesn't look like he's in any real hurry to stop.] No, that's wrong. Sometimes friends make mistakes or [betray you temporarily because they're trying to punish themselves] lose themselves for awhile, but that doesn't mean they're not your friends anymore.

Friendship isn't about convenience, that's never what it's been about.

And you won't be lonely if you fill that room with the right people. People that love you. [spelling it out for you in case you missed the memo nick.]
bekommen: (gimme shelter.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-21 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
No. No. You know what? Fuck that.

[She can feel the anger, white-hot, rising up in her throat even as the words spill out over her tongue.]

I had a friend once. Andy, my best and only friend. He was the only one in the whole fucking world who fucking understood me, and I was the only one who understood him. Me and him? We were inseparable. Ten fucking years I knew this kid - I had his back all through high school - I even moved to fucking Chicago because he asked me to go with him when he left town.

[She's breathing hard now, rocking back on her heels in agitation, trembling with the force of all the pain and anger she's kept bottled up inside for the past five months finally pushing out.]

I did everything for him! For ten fucking years! And do you know what he fucking says to me?

[An angry, sharp smile flashes across her face as she recites his words, heavy and sarcastic.]

"You know, Nick, we're just not the same kids we used to be. People change, and we haven't been friends for a while now. I just admitted it sooner than you."

[And she shakes her head.]

Don't you fucking tell me I'm wrong, kid. Maybe things are different in Dwarfland, but in my world? The only thing people are good for is fucking each other up.
fervence: (you can count on me)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-27 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[lloyd actually takes a step back (or more like, he falls back a step) at the unexpected vehemence of nick's response, but he falls back into a firm stance and while all the muscles in his body appear to be tensed for a fight his eyes are focused straight on her and there isn't a doubt left anywhere that he's listening very closely to what she's saying.

it's not exactly any story he's heard before, but then, it shouldn't be. everyone is different, that's something lloyd learned pretty quick after traveling outside of iselia and his forest for the first time, and that was part of what made meeting new people so great during their travels.

but in a weird way, the same thing that nick was describing had almost happened twice; with genis and with zelos. so he had something to work with, something to work off of, at least.

when nick stops talking his eyes are softer, though no less determined, and he's sort of frowning because choosing his words right now is important, this is important he can feel it and nick deserves for lloyd to take this seriously.
] I know it's probably not something you want to hear from me, especially since I wasn't there and I've only known you for a little while, but you shouldn't be the only one giving in a friendship, you know that, right?

You said you moved to... shi-ca-go [sounded out carefully] for him, but did you want to go for yourself at all? Did he even ask?

And I don't know him, obviously, so I can't say what he was thinking or why but... I've had friends try to push me away before. Sometimes in really hurtful ways even. And it was usually because they were already hurting really badly themselves. You're not wrong, okay? People are really good at hurting each other, even without trying. There's really no way of getting around that. And even your best friends will hurt you sometimes.

But that just makes the good stuff even more worth fighting for, honestly.
bekommen: (nothing lasts forever.)

cw alcoholism + child abuse

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-01-28 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Well, I sure didn't wanna stay in fucking Winchester.

[Her hands are shaking by the time she's finished yelling out her confession at him; she shoves them both inside the pockets of her coat, scowling down at the ground, wishing desperately she still had any cigarettes left.

He's not wrong. People are always in pain; Nick knows this, she's too sensitive to not have a baseline understanding of this simple truth, that everyone is in some kind of pain, and it shapes the way they approach the rest of the world. She knows it because she knows herself at least that much, and she saw it with her mother, too, how she couldn't stand to love Nick after her husband died, because Nick reminded her too much of him and what she'd lost. Her mother said as much with slurred words, and with the shoves and slaps she'd deal her daughter, too. She was in so much pain she didn't know how else to handle it.

But knowing it and accepting it are wildly different things. Nick might know that the few people she'd come to love and trust were still human, flawed, full of hangups, but accepting that and continuing to love them anyway ... that's something Nick has never been able to do. Because after a while, it hurt too much to keep trying.]


Look, kid, you can't keep being someone's friend once they've decided you're not worth bothering with, all right? And anyway, it doesn't matter. None of that shit matters anymore.

[Maybe if she repeats that often enough, she'll finally start believing it.]
fervence: (she likes to make everyone curious)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-01-30 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
But that's the thing. [lloyd says, taking a step forward with the sort of energy that might seem like he's looking for a fight but there's nothing of the sort in his eyes. which was saying something because lloyd had come out here looking to pick a fight with this whole world practically.

picking a fight with his friends wasn't going to help anything though, he'd already figured that out with zelos.
]

Sometimes it's not that they think you're not worth it, but that they think they're not worth it. And I'm not saying that's what your friend was doing, because I don't know him but. [scrubbing a hand through his hair anxiously] You'll find friends who won't do that, okay? I promise. Sometimes people are sad or angry or hurt or lost and they honestly don't know how to be your friend the right way.

And sometimes you can help them and sometimes you just can't. [genis had tried with mithos, in a way. but the hurt had been too old, too strong. none of them had had enough time.] But every single person you meet is important, they teach you something or learn something from you, or, or... whatever. And sometimes what you learn hurts, and sometimes it feels like something you can't get past but you always can, and your friends can help you with that if you'll let them.

But all of it matters, okay? All of it.
bekommen: (for fear your grace should fall.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-02-01 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[She'd be more readily able to believe these things Lloyd says if she could see past her own pain, if she didn't have such a deep sense of self-loathing. Why else would people keep leaving her, if she was worth staying for? They wouldn't, so she must not be; that's her logic.]

Whatever, kid. I'm better off without people, and they're better off without me. Some people are just too fucked up, OK?

[People like her, fundamentally broken. That's how Nick sees herself.]

Nobody's gonna learn shit from me, and I don't wanna learn anything from anyone else. OK? It doesn't matter. Andy's back in Chicago, living his perfect fucking life, and I'm here, and fuck knows if or when I'm ever gonna get back to my world anyway. So it doesn't matter.
fervence: (honestly i wanna see you be brave)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-02-08 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
That's not true, I've already learned lots of stuff from you! [lloyd insists rather fervently, fist clenched between them in a distinctly unthreatening manner, considering the gesture.]

And until you go back home, I can be your friend.
bekommen: (nothing lasts forever.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-02-12 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Nick exhales loudly, a nonverbal dismissal.]

That sounds like the absolute worst idea I've heard in a long time, and believe me, I've heard some real shitballs.
fervence: (remember everything you hear)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-02-16 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
No way, I've definitely come up with worse ideas that that. [lloyd says, shaking his head very firmly and, honestly, he probably could have come up with something slightly more reassuring to say but if lloyd is nothing else it's honest.

sometimes that's the most important part, really.
]
bekommen: (and now the old ways don't seem true.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-02-17 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[Did you really just.]

That's not exactly a winning argument you're making here, kid.
fervence: (and playing in the rain)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-02-20 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
[oh yeah, right, he should probably explain that a bit better, shouldn't he?]

I mean, all of those ideas turned out okay, so obviously this one will too! [it's fool proof. which is good considering lloyd's the one who came up with it.]
bekommen: (mad bull lost its way.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-02-26 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
[So much side-eyeing, Lloyd. So much.]

Yeah, I don't think that's how it actually works.
fervence: (and let the words)

[personal profile] fervence 2016-02-29 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
[side-eyeing is a good thing, right? he gets it so often from his friends it must be good. lloyd nods quickly, and it's clear she isn't going to budge him on this issue at all, he's made up his mind.]

It can be if you're more positive about it.
bekommen: (i can't get no satisfaction.)

[personal profile] bekommen 2016-03-04 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Nick just. Rolls her eyes.]

Sure, I'll get right on that.

[No, she won't.]