[He sighs a little heavily into his cup, having curled in on himself a little more, knee tucked up to rest his chin on it and both hands gripping his drink as his arms lay semi-limp. It's not comfortable, necessarily, but Taako's not comfortable so it doesn't matter.
He... it's something Kravitz should know anyway. It's not even that big a deal, in the grand scheme of things. He was going to say something when they met again, if he found him back home, was going to do it when Kravitz showed up in Hadriel. But then Lucretia appeared and he fought with Lup and he couldn't handle being vulnerable again. But now it'd been a few weeks, and... god, why does he feel like he owes him? Why does he feels like he needs to say this, as if Kravitz has some fucking hold on him, as if he owes him a piece of his heart, when he doesn't owe him shit.
But fuck, he wants that approval. He wants it so badly. What is this man doing to him.
Taako tilts his head away, takes a deep breath, and when he looks back towards Kravitz, the disguise spell he's been channeling since Wonderland is gone. It's not... as drastic as one would imagine Taako makes it out to be. Small creases around his eyes, a shift in his nose and cheekbones, a droop to his lips that isn't quite the pout he'd like it to be. But at this point it's more than that. It's every physical representation of how separate he is from everyone, how much he's now physically someone changed. And to have it all laid out like that, to have to face it in the mirror, is the worst fucking thing for him to deal with.]
So, uh, I had a bad run in with some liches while I was saving the world again, and this is what I really look like. And I just. Wanted you to know that, in case it changes anything for you, personally. So, this is Taako today. Sorry I've been catfishing you or, or something.
[Kravitz might remember his tone of voice here, the same way it got low and flat at the Chug'n'Squeeze, at the admission that forces past his lips. But he does look towards the other man, finally, tilting his head towards him so he can see Kravitz to his side.]
Probably should've said something earlier, I guess.
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He... it's something Kravitz should know anyway. It's not even that big a deal, in the grand scheme of things. He was going to say something when they met again, if he found him back home, was going to do it when Kravitz showed up in Hadriel. But then Lucretia appeared and he fought with Lup and he couldn't handle being vulnerable again. But now it'd been a few weeks, and... god, why does he feel like he owes him? Why does he feels like he needs to say this, as if Kravitz has some fucking hold on him, as if he owes him a piece of his heart, when he doesn't owe him shit.
But fuck, he wants that approval. He wants it so badly. What is this man doing to him.
Taako tilts his head away, takes a deep breath, and when he looks back towards Kravitz, the disguise spell he's been channeling since Wonderland is gone. It's not... as drastic as one would imagine Taako makes it out to be. Small creases around his eyes, a shift in his nose and cheekbones, a droop to his lips that isn't quite the pout he'd like it to be. But at this point it's more than that. It's every physical representation of how separate he is from everyone, how much he's now physically someone changed. And to have it all laid out like that, to have to face it in the mirror, is the worst fucking thing for him to deal with.]
So, uh, I had a bad run in with some liches while I was saving the world again, and this is what I really look like. And I just. Wanted you to know that, in case it changes anything for you, personally. So, this is Taako today. Sorry I've been catfishing you or, or something.
[Kravitz might remember his tone of voice here, the same way it got low and flat at the Chug'n'Squeeze, at the admission that forces past his lips. But he does look towards the other man, finally, tilting his head towards him so he can see Kravitz to his side.]
Probably should've said something earlier, I guess.