( That she can understand, even if she can't understand what it means to have your life on a timer in that way. They've all but completely avoided the fact of Carlisle's mortality since it was shared, replaced it with bickering and unspoken worry. She doesn't want to accept that Carlisle's right about it, but it's unique to his world, and they're here in a city which barely allows them to fix basic injuries half of the time.
Everyone she's lost, she's lost suddenly. No warning beyond the risks of a job, a lifestyle they'd survived for nearly seven years. The lingering inevitability is entirely alien to her.
In other words, she doesn't know how to deal with it.
But she knows her answer to what Carlisle asks as surely as she knows anything. )
Not much point if you lose everyone you have.
( The idea of being alone again, devoid of everyone who's become friends, close to family, is terrifying. It took so long to learn that pushing people away was a terrible idea, she doesn't want to lose the ones she's let in. )
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Everyone she's lost, she's lost suddenly. No warning beyond the risks of a job, a lifestyle they'd survived for nearly seven years. The lingering inevitability is entirely alien to her.
In other words, she doesn't know how to deal with it.
But she knows her answer to what Carlisle asks as surely as she knows anything. )
Not much point if you lose everyone you have.
( The idea of being alone again, devoid of everyone who's become friends, close to family, is terrifying. It took so long to learn that pushing people away was a terrible idea, she doesn't want to lose the ones she's let in. )