What is even happening right now? What is she doing? This doesn't make any sense and he just tenses up even more when she presses against his back, wracking his fever-addled brain to even remember what she's talking about. A list, right. "You didn't," he tells her, vaguely aware that he didn't actually ask for it, but still. He never heard it. So either it doesn't exist or there's a reason she never gave it to him.