[ After what happened with Blue, Gansey had to get out of the house. There was no choice. He couldn't stay there after she'd literally tried to kill him. He needed to clear his head, and despite knowing that there was danger on the streets, he went to them anyway. What could the harm of it be, after all? It wasn't as though he was safe in his own home.
In spite of that, though - in spite of all of that, Gansey isn't expecting to be affected himself. Violence isn't something he can imagine himself doing. It never has been, and never will be. His friends don't mind it in the same way, but to Gansey, it's always been a thing to avoid. He doesn't like violence, doesn't like fighting, doesn't like weapons being around him.
It means that when he sees her, he's unprepared. The girl is not one he knows, and he can't explain the sudden animosity. It churns in his stomach, starting the moment he sees her there in front of him. There's absolutely no good reason for it. ]
What is it you want? [ He snaps, despite the fact that she hasn't spoken to him. ] Get out of here, can't you. I didn't come here for you.
Open - Library
[ After Tinker Bell, he feels there's nowhere left to go. If Gansey had thought it felt bad to know he was being targeted by Blue, this was even worse. He'd thought himself immune from the touch of violence. As it turned out, he could not have been more wrong. He had looked at that girl, and he'd wanted to hurt her. He had genuinely wanted to do her damage, for no reason other than that she was in his sights. Even thinking of her now, he feels a taste of the same feeling.
It can't be natural. He knows that, implicitly. It's completely illogical for him to hate a stranger, especially in this way. He'd never wanted to enact violence on his worst enemies, and this girl had certainly done nothing to deserve it.
It leaves him feeling vulnerable in a way that even Blue's attack on him had not done. If he can be made to want something so opposite to him, anything is possible. Worse, he knows that if this is how he feels about a woman he's never met, it must be how Blue feels about him, and it's clear to him that this isn't something she'll be able to shake. Just being around her will trigger those feelings. Gansey had needed to get away from Tinker Bell just to feel sensible again.
How could he go home, under those conditions?
It's probably foolish to imagine he's safe in the library. He's not, really. Anyone could come upon him here. Blue wants to hurt him, but she may not be the only one. But what else can he do? Home is certainly not safe, and the streets, where Tinker Bell is, are no safer. Faced with that, Gansey does the only thing he can; he flees to the library, and buries his head in books. At least, he thinks, they'll distract him. He can't read them, but he can look, and thumb through the pictures. Anything to get his mind off what's happening. With shaking hands, he turns the pages, and tries to keep focused on this. ]
Gansey | 1 Closed 1 Open
[ After what happened with Blue, Gansey had to get out of the house. There was no choice. He couldn't stay there after she'd literally tried to kill him. He needed to clear his head, and despite knowing that there was danger on the streets, he went to them anyway. What could the harm of it be, after all? It wasn't as though he was safe in his own home.
In spite of that, though - in spite of all of that, Gansey isn't expecting to be affected himself. Violence isn't something he can imagine himself doing. It never has been, and never will be. His friends don't mind it in the same way, but to Gansey, it's always been a thing to avoid. He doesn't like violence, doesn't like fighting, doesn't like weapons being around him.
It means that when he sees her, he's unprepared. The girl is not one he knows, and he can't explain the sudden animosity. It churns in his stomach, starting the moment he sees her there in front of him. There's absolutely no good reason for it. ]
What is it you want? [ He snaps, despite the fact that she hasn't spoken to him. ] Get out of here, can't you. I didn't come here for you.
Open - Library
[ After Tinker Bell, he feels there's nowhere left to go. If Gansey had thought it felt bad to know he was being targeted by Blue, this was even worse. He'd thought himself immune from the touch of violence. As it turned out, he could not have been more wrong. He had looked at that girl, and he'd wanted to hurt her. He had genuinely wanted to do her damage, for no reason other than that she was in his sights. Even thinking of her now, he feels a taste of the same feeling.
It can't be natural. He knows that, implicitly. It's completely illogical for him to hate a stranger, especially in this way. He'd never wanted to enact violence on his worst enemies, and this girl had certainly done nothing to deserve it.
It leaves him feeling vulnerable in a way that even Blue's attack on him had not done. If he can be made to want something so opposite to him, anything is possible. Worse, he knows that if this is how he feels about a woman he's never met, it must be how Blue feels about him, and it's clear to him that this isn't something she'll be able to shake. Just being around her will trigger those feelings. Gansey had needed to get away from Tinker Bell just to feel sensible again.
How could he go home, under those conditions?
It's probably foolish to imagine he's safe in the library. He's not, really. Anyone could come upon him here. Blue wants to hurt him, but she may not be the only one. But what else can he do? Home is certainly not safe, and the streets, where Tinker Bell is, are no safer. Faced with that, Gansey does the only thing he can; he flees to the library, and buries his head in books. At least, he thinks, they'll distract him. He can't read them, but he can look, and thumb through the pictures. Anything to get his mind off what's happening. With shaking hands, he turns the pages, and tries to keep focused on this. ]