hadriel_logs | Event Log: Old Friends And New

Who: Characters in Hadriel and all Fourth Wall attendees
What: Fourth Wall Event!
Where: All around the city
When: The Door malfunctions and brings folks from all different worlds into Hadriel. The more the merrier!
Warnings: None

The city is a little more... crowded than usual. Throughout the week, you may see a few more faces around, some familiar and some unfamiliar- you may even witness certain characters just popping in and out of existence as the Door flexes its uncertain power. Luckily, this seems to be the only effect of the Door's experimentation so far, but that's not to say that the worry ends here.

Some of you may find friends from home, others may find enemies, or just new allies or people you really don't get along with. Either way, it's time for a party as the gods scramble to put some sort of gathering together so that you can all take care of one another and the gods don't have to deal with another mass influx of people when they aren't ready for it. Aren't they nice?

So enjoy your music, your food, and the random assortments of items you may be able to find in the shops. The kindness won't last forever, but the gods are fairly certain that this explosion of new people is just temporary, so enjoy it while you can!

Due to the Door's meddling, some of the new people may enter the city already aware of their predicament. In order to cut down on some confusion, new visitors from the door may find that they're already aware of the conflict they're a part of, the city they're in, and have some vague idea of the gods they're surrounded by. They may even be aware that their stay here is temporary- still, there's no reason not to find shelter and food and a few allies to help you ease the way.

► This log covers October 22nd-30th.
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[Kain shakes his head, as he watches Atem closely. No one likes being forgotten, that's true, but he's been through it so much that he doesn't really see it as too much of a problem. It's just one more obstacle, one more bit of weirdness that this place has thrown at them.]

You've no need to apologize. It's not as if it's your fault. The gods are the ones who surely owe the apology.

「Atem nods, he cannot really do much but that.

He's a little curious tho.」

Those cycles of war you mentioned... What happened? Why were you fighting?

[As for Kain, he'll do what he can to remind him of who he is, as much as he can. He knows it may or may not help. To him, just a sense that they're allies is enough for now. Atem knows that much, and that's a good start.]

I was brought alongside several other warriors to fight for the goddess, Cosmos, against the evil god, Chaos and his warriors. Our memories of home were gone, so all we knew was that conflict. All we knew was to fight and keep fighting, for endless cycles of war… but we forgot our memories of the previous cycle each time it started anew. I'm sure I still have memories from those cycles which are lost for good, even if I did regain my memories of home, at least.

「To be chosen by a god to fight for them... that's high recognition to anyone, but to fight senseless and without any regard for them... just seems cruel.」

Why didn't you remember? Do these gods make you forget every time?

「Probably, but why?」

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The reasons for that are... complicated.

[He pauses a moment, gathering his thoughts. After all, he'd thought it was deliberate for the longest time, something the gods needed. They'd needed blank slates for warriors more than people who might miss home too much. So he'd thought, but Cosmos isn't like that... No. Now he thinks about how that battle had ended, the one time he actually remembered how it ended.]

But I don't think it was done intentionally. I think it was more of a... side effect of some sort. If we died in battle, we were revived by this... I think it was a dragon... Yes, a dragon... I only ever saw it happen this last time. But in that revival, the memories were simply a price we had to pay.

「Revived...

That would probably explain the side effect. It all makes sense now, but not in a good way for Atem. How many times had Kain gone through that? How many times had he forgotten, and, how many times would he have to go through it again?」

Seems like a recurrent price to pay... 「Maybe this was really just another side effect of his own demise... It's been so long for him after all.」

Doesn't it bother you?

It truly is a high price, one which I experienced many times, although I remained unaware until that last cycle...

[Kain sighs, looking down for a moment as he considers that. It hadn't been easy to first learn of the truth. By now, he'd come to terms with most of it, or so he'd thought. But there's more that's unresolved than he's been willing to admit.]

Of course it bothers me... but I still have to live with it. It's far from the worst burden I've had to bear.

I suppose there are worse things.

「Ignorance, however can be just as terrible, he knows it well.」

Will it ever come to an end?

There certainly are far worse things. I have memories that I'd rather not keep... but those are also mine to bear, despite how I feel.

[He shakes his head.]

I don't know. It ended for me, when my life ended... but I'd like to hope there will be a true end to all of that fighting.

「Atem allows a moment of silence. It's true that these gods could bring him back to fight for them yet again, but maybe it's better not to mention it.」

That's the least anyone can hope for.

「At least Kain's heart seems to be in the right place, despite everything.」

It really is. We were close to ending it, but the enemy's tactics were insurmountable at the time. Still... we had a good chance in the next cycle...

[He sighs, suddenly missing everyone he'd left behind. For the most part, he tries to just not think about any of it, normally, because it truly does hurt a great deal. But he does what he can to push those feelings down, to internalize them as he always does when something bothers him.]

Not that any of it matters at the moment. I'm here instead, after all.

Of course...

「Dwelling in the past is unfortunately something everyone tends to do, after all, Atem had fought hard to recover his memories, wanting to know where he came from, but only to know where they would lead him. These, maybe he can live without.」

I should let you go now, you were patrolling after all... right?

I... Yes, I am, you're right. I ought to return to doing that. Thank you, though. I don't normally get to talk about any of this, and... it was worth it.

[He nods at him appreciatively. A lot has apparently happened, and yet... he still seems like the same Atem to him. That's good enough, he figures.]

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