[she's trying to act as though everything's normal, she really is. but the gods hold on her is strong and she can't help but act a little more open]

Yeah, that's true. I mean, we've had worse. This is just a little awkward. [actually, a lot awkward] Those are the worst. It's like we're part of some kind of gladiator games when that happens.

[she'd like to think she'd be able to resist that kind of compulsion]