I was young and thought myself very clever and didn't have a full understanding of what I was doing. So I call it good fortune, that I had access to a tome of occult arts and that I turned to it when I was desperate. Lord Amamot has cared for me ever since I first agreed to work for him.

[Which she knows is because she has served him faithfully and well. He's not exactly a generous man to those who displease him. It's almost impossible to imagine any of the Abyssal lords being altruistic and Amamot, a creature who afflicts others with desires for war and bloodshed by his mere presence, is no exception.]