[ Lucretia just scoffs, shaking her head, and takes Lup's glass to pour her another drink. The question catches her off guard, though, and (thankfully) she pauses before she can even consider the question of whether to keep going herself.

She glances up at Lup, surprised, empty glass still clutched in one hand. ]

After?

[ She'd spent so much time and energy just trying to get there, just trying to finish it, and when she'd been brought to Hadriel it still hadn't been done. Being here - the times in between all the shitty parts, at least - had been a nice respite, but even knowing that their hard-fought victory is coming, she still hadn't stopped to think about what she'll do after it's all over.

She looks down at the table, shaking her head. ]

I don't -

I don't know.

This has been my life for so long, Lup. Not just - not just the past ten years, but before that, the Starblaster...

[ She'd been so young at their journey's beginning, barely even a young woman rather than a child. She's not like Lup and Taako, who'd had decades to figure out who they were and what they wanted to do before they boarded the ship and everything changed forever. ]

Fighting the Hunger...

It - it is my life.