[It's a lot to come to terms with, but Lup isn't worried. If anyone can make it work, if anyone can push through the worst of it to find what's right, it's Lucretia.
She's feeling the effects of the alcohol, cheeks all flushed while she leans over, just enough to drop her chin on top of her folded arms, looking up at Lucretia from where she's planted on the table.]
Not gonna lie, somedays I still don't know.
[She still has her bad days, days where the elf can't break out of her own head and just feels trapped in the umbrella and frozen in time all over again. Days where she can't get out of bed. Days where she just sits out on the porch to sob while the sun rises. It's all so fucking much after nearly twelve years of isolation and nothingness.
But the good days make it all worth it. And Lup would like to think that recently she has had way more good days than bad.]
Besides workin' full time for Mama Bird, just been kinda... kinda trying to find my place again. Lots of time with Taako, Bar, you. But with Car an' Killian an' Angus too. Barry's been teaching me how to garden. We've been talking about kids. Or pets. Or just more dumb hobbies together. It's just - It's so fuckin' wild. We have a house. Like, one that doesn't move! Something that's all mine. It's -
[She's never not been a talker, but it comes so much easier after too many shots of awful booze.]
Somedays I just don't get out of bed. Not cuz I can't, just cuz I can. I can sleep all day or walk around naked or just read out in the yard. Picked up the violin again, haven't lost my touch at all, natch. Before I popped back in here, 'Ko and I just spent a whole day shoppin'. That was it. We didn't - didn't even have to steal anything. Folks were just throwing shit at us, but even if they didn't, we're just loaded now. Still doesn't feel real. All of it. Everyone's just so damn happy. Feels like a dream.
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She's feeling the effects of the alcohol, cheeks all flushed while she leans over, just enough to drop her chin on top of her folded arms, looking up at Lucretia from where she's planted on the table.]
Not gonna lie, somedays I still don't know.
[She still has her bad days, days where the elf can't break out of her own head and just feels trapped in the umbrella and frozen in time all over again. Days where she can't get out of bed. Days where she just sits out on the porch to sob while the sun rises. It's all so fucking much after nearly twelve years of isolation and nothingness.
But the good days make it all worth it. And Lup would like to think that recently she has had way more good days than bad.]
Besides workin' full time for Mama Bird, just been kinda... kinda trying to find my place again. Lots of time with Taako, Bar, you. But with Car an' Killian an' Angus too. Barry's been teaching me how to garden. We've been talking about kids. Or pets. Or just more dumb hobbies together. It's just - It's so fuckin' wild. We have a house. Like, one that doesn't move! Something that's all mine. It's -
[She's never not been a talker, but it comes so much easier after too many shots of awful booze.]
Somedays I just don't get out of bed. Not cuz I can't, just cuz I can. I can sleep all day or walk around naked or just read out in the yard. Picked up the violin again, haven't lost my touch at all, natch. Before I popped back in here, 'Ko and I just spent a whole day shoppin'. That was it. We didn't - didn't even have to steal anything. Folks were just throwing shit at us, but even if they didn't, we're just loaded now. Still doesn't feel real. All of it. Everyone's just so damn happy. Feels like a dream.