Abruptly, Gansey wishes he hadn't asked. It would've been easier if it was just Adam, who thinks he knows better than everyone else at least as often as Gansey does. Ronan has lied by omission plenty of times, tried (and probably succeeded) to hide things from Gansey. None of them are things like this. Is keeping his own death from him a betrayal? It certainly feels like one, though it was probably meant as a mercy.

"And they both want to go home so badly." His voice is brittle, cruel, and he regrets the words as soon as he says them, but he doesn't take them back. Of course they do. There's more to life than Richard Gansey, but it's hard not to feel betrayed by the fact that they're depending on him to get them home when they know it's a death sentence for him and Noah both.