"Ronan didn't know until we got here." He needs to correct that, to make it clear. Ronan didn't know before, it wasn't some kind of - conspiracy where everyone in the world knew except Gansey. Only maybe it was, because all of Blue's family knew, Blue knew, maybe Noah knew, and none of them were going to tell Gansey. None of them would have told Adam, either, except that he didn't need them to. He'd guessed.

"What does it help, you knowing? You tie yourself in knots over it, worry over every little thing? Blue was already doing that, at home. I was doing that." He still is, to some extent, except Adam doesn't quite think this place - or Harborview - counts. It's home that counts. If Gansey dies, really dies, that's where it will happen.

"You're not a martyr, Gansey, you don't need to know about your death so you can accept it or whatever, because it isn't going to happen."