Nick hasn't been this frustrated about not being able to find her way around since her first days in Chicago, after she'd moved there from the small town in Kansas where she was born and raised for the first eighteen years of her life, when the city was still a maze of concrete and bus lines and El stops to navigate. The city was a frightening behemoth then, and Hadriel has turned into much the same thing now, as she turns and takes familiar paths that lead her anywhere except where she wants to go.
The first day is like this, when she leaves her apartment and heads for the bar and arrives at Hope's temple instead. It's irritating, and it scares her a little, though that's quickly subsumed in her anger once she realizes it's the new god's doing. She ends up spending the night in the forest, because getting lost in the dark is surely worse than during the simulated day.
The next couple of days are worse, because Nick discovers she's no longer in control of transforming from Facade to Morphus and back again. It's too much like the first time in Stanley Park, when she Became and had no choice in shifting shapes, and it frightens her more than she'd care to admit. She's still lost, and when her hands start firing energy bolts and her mouth starts opening to allow her high-pitched scream to escape, that frightens her more, because it's too much like being controlled by Rage all those months ago, when she almost killed Maketh, and Nick told herself she'd rather be dead than do this all over again.
nick rivenna | early days of the event; open
The first day is like this, when she leaves her apartment and heads for the bar and arrives at Hope's temple instead. It's irritating, and it scares her a little, though that's quickly subsumed in her anger once she realizes it's the new god's doing. She ends up spending the night in the forest, because getting lost in the dark is surely worse than during the simulated day.
The next couple of days are worse, because Nick discovers she's no longer in control of transforming from Facade to Morphus and back again. It's too much like the first time in Stanley Park, when she Became and had no choice in shifting shapes, and it frightens her more than she'd care to admit. She's still lost, and when her hands start firing energy bolts and her mouth starts opening to allow her high-pitched scream to escape, that frightens her more, because it's too much like being controlled by Rage all those months ago, when she almost killed Maketh, and Nick told herself she'd rather be dead than do this all over again.