[He lets himself be pushed against the wall. She's stronger than she looks, and she knows how to use that strength, but it's not enough if he chose to withstand it.
He just goes. After a moment, he wraps his arms around her, and slides down to the floor with her, his face dropping to her shoulder.
It's a nice dream. One he can't seem to wake up from.
He's loved, she says.
He knows it's true, and it scares him so much. Because he doesn't know what he's supposed to do with it. What is he, who is he, if not a weapon? Everything he was supposed to know, that he thought he knew, it's been shaken and broken. He doesn't know who he is, or what he's supposed to do without Hydra. He's been lost and wandering for months, with only Steve as an anchor, and... it's been enough, but it shouldn't have been. And that's scared him too. That one small man he barely remembers can shake up his whole existence so thoroughly.
That one girl from another universe can shake it even more.
Hydra was all he was, all he knew. What is he supposed to do without them?
He doesn't even notice when he starts to cry into River's shoulder, his arms tight around her.]
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He just goes. After a moment, he wraps his arms around her, and slides down to the floor with her, his face dropping to her shoulder.
It's a nice dream. One he can't seem to wake up from.
He's loved, she says.
He knows it's true, and it scares him so much. Because he doesn't know what he's supposed to do with it. What is he, who is he, if not a weapon? Everything he was supposed to know, that he thought he knew, it's been shaken and broken. He doesn't know who he is, or what he's supposed to do without Hydra. He's been lost and wandering for months, with only Steve as an anchor, and... it's been enough, but it shouldn't have been. And that's scared him too. That one small man he barely remembers can shake up his whole existence so thoroughly.
That one girl from another universe can shake it even more.
Hydra was all he was, all he knew. What is he supposed to do without them?
He doesn't even notice when he starts to cry into River's shoulder, his arms tight around her.]