That poker face may be the worst thing about this messed up situation. The fact that Kaz can really only guess at what Snake is thinking or feeling, that he's remaining stony-faced and calm in the face of all of Kaz's valid anger, only serves to fuel the fire. It's not so different from how he'd been made to feel by Zero and Ocelot, as if he was just an unwanted party in their carefully laid plans.
Well, Kaz has never been a pushover, and he's going to make himself heard and insert himself into their plans no matter what they do. That goes for Snake now, too -- he's just as bad as the rest of them, it turns out.
I wanted to, Kaz. I wanted to be involved. The words may as well be like knives piercing into his chest. All that time waiting and he finally has him back, but the reunion has been soured. What Kaz hates the most is that there's a tiny part of him, way deep down, that's still relieved.
It's what Snake says next that causes some of the pieces to fall into place, though. For once, Snake actually figures it out before Kaz has to explain it to him, yet that doesn't stem the explosive response to his question. "No, I didn't agree to it, not really." He shakes his head vehemently. "They wouldn't even tell me what hospital you were in. They kept me sedated, then had you moved while I was out.
"It went on for nine years like that." Maybe Snake doesn't have any sense of how much time really passed, but Kaz had to live through every agonizing day. "They told me when you woke up. I thought this was it, finally I'd get to see you again." It sounds so pathetic now, and he turns his gaze away, jaw clenched. "I even gave myself up to the enemy, got myself captured, so that some of the heat would be off of you during your escape."
Kaz bows his head then, his shoulders shaking with mock laughter. "For a moment there, I actually thought you came for me too. They took me to Mother Base, treated me, and then I realized the man who'd gotten me out of that hell wasn't you. Ocelot explained then and only then."
It's painful having to retell it, and that bleeds into his strained voice as he draws in shaky breaths. "So do you get why I'm so pissed now?" he asks between grit teeth.
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Well, Kaz has never been a pushover, and he's going to make himself heard and insert himself into their plans no matter what they do. That goes for Snake now, too -- he's just as bad as the rest of them, it turns out.
I wanted to, Kaz. I wanted to be involved. The words may as well be like knives piercing into his chest. All that time waiting and he finally has him back, but the reunion has been soured. What Kaz hates the most is that there's a tiny part of him, way deep down, that's still relieved.
It's what Snake says next that causes some of the pieces to fall into place, though. For once, Snake actually figures it out before Kaz has to explain it to him, yet that doesn't stem the explosive response to his question. "No, I didn't agree to it, not really." He shakes his head vehemently. "They wouldn't even tell me what hospital you were in. They kept me sedated, then had you moved while I was out.
"It went on for nine years like that." Maybe Snake doesn't have any sense of how much time really passed, but Kaz had to live through every agonizing day. "They told me when you woke up. I thought this was it, finally I'd get to see you again." It sounds so pathetic now, and he turns his gaze away, jaw clenched. "I even gave myself up to the enemy, got myself captured, so that some of the heat would be off of you during your escape."
Kaz bows his head then, his shoulders shaking with mock laughter. "For a moment there, I actually thought you came for me too. They took me to Mother Base, treated me, and then I realized the man who'd gotten me out of that hell wasn't you. Ocelot explained then and only then."
It's painful having to retell it, and that bleeds into his strained voice as he draws in shaky breaths. "So do you get why I'm so pissed now?" he asks between grit teeth.