[It feels like a rock in his stomach. He knew Gansey worried about him hurting Ronan, but he had convinced himself that meant Ronan's feelings. That Gansey worried he would treat this like an experiment or a fling, and leave Ronan with a broken heart. Not - not this. Not that he would actually hurt Ronan.
Surely Ronan can't think that's possible? Adam has never, would never do something like that. But maybe he thinks it could happen too. After all, he's seen Adam do awful things. He knows Adam isn't a good person, he knows where Adam comes from.
It's hard to even speak.]
I wouldn't - I would never hurt you. Please, you know that, right?
[He looks at Ronan, almost desperate. He needs to know that Ronan believes he'd never do that, that Ronan trusts him. He never thought Gansey would think of him that way, but Gansey has thought other things of him that weren't true - it hurts, it hurts a lot, but it isn't such an incredible stretch. But Ronan has to know Adam better than that, after everything they've been through together. He has to.]
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Surely Ronan can't think that's possible? Adam has never, would never do something like that. But maybe he thinks it could happen too. After all, he's seen Adam do awful things. He knows Adam isn't a good person, he knows where Adam comes from.
It's hard to even speak.]
I wouldn't - I would never hurt you. Please, you know that, right?
[He looks at Ronan, almost desperate. He needs to know that Ronan believes he'd never do that, that Ronan trusts him. He never thought Gansey would think of him that way, but Gansey has thought other things of him that weren't true - it hurts, it hurts a lot, but it isn't such an incredible stretch. But Ronan has to know Adam better than that, after everything they've been through together. He has to.]