[this isn't real. jack's brows knit together at the thought, but it's getting harder and harder to see the forgery. it seems like such a courageous act, that touch, something that jack's wanted to do. johnny doesn't struggle to be brave, at least never for long. it's a part of who he is.]

So am I. [he swallows hard after he says the words. ok, if johnny wants to do this.] I won't pretend that I don't want you. I think you already know that. But I don't want you doing anything that makes you uncomfortable, not for me. Not ever.