[He wants to believe the double, because it looks like Ronan and moves like Ronan, and he believes Ronan without question. If Ronan asked him to walk through fire - well, Adam would be dubious, but he'd do it, because Ronan has all of his trust. But this isn't Ronan, and so he has to keep himself from falling into that trap.
Is it worth the gamble? Right now, with this thing so close, it feels like it might be. One kiss, and Adam might be safe. One kiss, and he won't have to look at the creature that killed his boyfriend. That isn't too high a price to pay. Adam has principles, certainly, but at heart he is a practical person. If one kiss is the price for safety, he knows it's a price he has to pay.
And then - he doesn't know what. His mind flinches away from the thought of Ronan's body, of taking care of it. Of Aspen and Chainsaw. Of everything that he didn't realize, and that will always be his fault, that will always be something to blame himself for.]
There's no piece of me that isn't meant for him.
[His voice is steady, but distant. Only steady because it is distant, really. It's the only way he can keep himself together, and with every moment he inches closer to falling apart.]
But if you aren't lying - if you'll leave - I'll do it.
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Is it worth the gamble? Right now, with this thing so close, it feels like it might be. One kiss, and Adam might be safe. One kiss, and he won't have to look at the creature that killed his boyfriend. That isn't too high a price to pay. Adam has principles, certainly, but at heart he is a practical person. If one kiss is the price for safety, he knows it's a price he has to pay.
And then - he doesn't know what. His mind flinches away from the thought of Ronan's body, of taking care of it. Of Aspen and Chainsaw. Of everything that he didn't realize, and that will always be his fault, that will always be something to blame himself for.]
There's no piece of me that isn't meant for him.
[His voice is steady, but distant. Only steady because it is distant, really. It's the only way he can keep himself together, and with every moment he inches closer to falling apart.]
But if you aren't lying - if you'll leave - I'll do it.