[He shakes his head, though he does take the gun - if only to keep it from getting left on the ground or accidentally discharged. He doesn't want anyone else to get hurt, he doesn't want Ronan to get hurt.]
This isn't your responsibility.
[And Adam absolutely does not want to leave it on Ronan's shoulders. That would be wrong in every possible way. He did this, he is responsible for it. It's his double and his murder. And Ronan - he can see the way Ronan looks at the body, or the way he tries not to look. It makes Adam's stomach twist. It's not him, but to Ronan - it must be similar. It must be even more horrible that Adam was able to do such a thing.
He can't make up for it. It was the necessary thing to do, but that doesn't mean it was the right thing. Isn't that what Adam has always been good at? Doing what's necessary, not what's right. Doing things that are, objectively, awful. He can't make up for it, but he can clean up his own mess. It is the absolute least he can do.]
I don't want you to have to do this, Ronan. If you want to stay, I won't make you go, but I can't...
[He can't let Ronan do this, is what he wants to say, but he stops himself. He has even less right to exert that sort of control than he ever has before.]
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This isn't your responsibility.
[And Adam absolutely does not want to leave it on Ronan's shoulders. That would be wrong in every possible way. He did this, he is responsible for it. It's his double and his murder. And Ronan - he can see the way Ronan looks at the body, or the way he tries not to look. It makes Adam's stomach twist. It's not him, but to Ronan - it must be similar. It must be even more horrible that Adam was able to do such a thing.
He can't make up for it. It was the necessary thing to do, but that doesn't mean it was the right thing. Isn't that what Adam has always been good at? Doing what's necessary, not what's right. Doing things that are, objectively, awful. He can't make up for it, but he can clean up his own mess. It is the absolute least he can do.]
I don't want you to have to do this, Ronan. If you want to stay, I won't make you go, but I can't...
[He can't let Ronan do this, is what he wants to say, but he stops himself. He has even less right to exert that sort of control than he ever has before.]
I just need to do this.