[He knows Ronan won't. Or rather, he knows that even if Ronan does, he won't admit it and he won't give the shovel up - Adam's known him long enough to know that. It would likely be true even if the body at the bottom of that shallow grave weren't identical to his.
He watches, but he doesn't say anything. What can he say? What can either of them say that will make this moment better? He feels like he can nearly see the weight on Ronan's shoulders, and he can feel it on his own. It's not like burying Gansey, which nearly destroyed them. It's closer to burying a night horror, upsetting and horrifying but ultimately something that will pass, in time.
But it's worse than that, he knows, because it looks like him and because even now Ronan likely isn't sure it's not a dream.
When Ronan is nearly finished, Adam comes to stand with him, to watch the last few shovelfuls of dirt fall.]
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[He knows Ronan won't. Or rather, he knows that even if Ronan does, he won't admit it and he won't give the shovel up - Adam's known him long enough to know that. It would likely be true even if the body at the bottom of that shallow grave weren't identical to his.
He watches, but he doesn't say anything. What can he say? What can either of them say that will make this moment better? He feels like he can nearly see the weight on Ronan's shoulders, and he can feel it on his own. It's not like burying Gansey, which nearly destroyed them. It's closer to burying a night horror, upsetting and horrifying but ultimately something that will pass, in time.
But it's worse than that, he knows, because it looks like him and because even now Ronan likely isn't sure it's not a dream.
When Ronan is nearly finished, Adam comes to stand with him, to watch the last few shovelfuls of dirt fall.]