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hadriel_logs2017-06-22 10:02 am
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This Is My Chance. This Is My Chance. I'll Take It Now, Because I can.
Who: Yukari, Ichigen's ghost, and Open. And a closed prompt to Curufin
What: Ghost Event
Where: Around Hadriel
When: 6/21 - 6/29
Warnings: Emotional trauma, violence, physical deteriouration, ghost death; will update as needed.
[A. Until you die; until you're alive. (21st-25th)]
Yukari's out and about, picking up new fabrics and some general groceries. Occasionally, he'll see someone reacting strangely, and even start talking to themselves, and he cocks his head a little, observing with mild curiousity. But, before long, he dismisses it. Not his circus, not his monkeys. He carries a bag of groceries in one arm, and totes a carrier of folded cloth in the other as he heads away from the shops. He debates if he should make a small trip to Curufin's. The Elf is always coming to his house. Perhaps because Curufin's family lives with Curufin as well, and Yukari's place is room for them to be alone and comfortable together. That's what Yukari believes, anyway. He's never bothered asking, and it's never worried him either.
When Yukari rounds the corner, he's snapped from his reverie, and he grips the grocery bag a little tighter to resist dropping it in surprise, blinking and staring. He feels his breath snag. Is that... Is that Ichigen-sama?
One thing's for sure, that's definitely a thing that at least looks like him. Yukari shifts uncomfortably, and straightens his posture, moving to walk past the ghost yet never taking his gaze off of it. And, as he starts to walk away, the ghost seems to follow him. The look on Yukari's face is nothing short of unsettled. However, so long as he keeps an eye on Ichigen, he permits the ghost to follow him, trying to figure out why the ghost is here.
Over the span of the next few days, he'll be constantly walking around Hadriel, with his focus on Ichigen, staring at him. Occasionally, when Ichigen calls his name, or smiles at him, Yukari might visibly pale. But he doesn't converse back with it, not yet. And the ghost seems to be okay with this. He'll lead it places and then just sit on a bench, or stand in place, as he continues to stare; observing to see if this is some sort of joke. Which, as Ichigen keeps going about, and speaks in haiku as he makes observations of the caves, the less it appears like a joke.
Despite his growing fatigue, he repeats this course of action, day in and day out, not particularly concerned where he's going or sitting. Perhaps he's stepped on your foot, or taken the spot you were just about to sit in yourself. Maybe he's bumped or full on crashed into you, which he'll just move around you without an apology and continue going like he hit nothing at all, never breaking his stare on Ichigen.
[B. Until you see, how could you believe? (26th-27th)]
It isn't until a handful of days later that Yukari finally speaks to him. Standing near the shops, Ichigen looks concerned about Yukari's growing fatigue. Ichigen is the first to speak today finally asks him, "What's on your mind, Yukari?"
It takes Yukari a moment to answer. He has a barrage of questions, and each one more complicated than the last. And with Ichigen observing him, he's sure the ghost is fully aware of what lies beneath Yukari's surface. Ichigen always was, no matter how Yukari tried to hide it. With that, he chooses the most prominent question.
"Are you really Ichigen-sama?"
"It seems that way, doesn't it? Either way, I am here." The ghost is gentle, warm, and sincere.
Yukari merely folds his arms in thought and responds with a hmmm... It certainly seems like Ichigen.
"Yukari, you should be taking care of your health." Ichigen says it almost warily. It wasn't that Yukari hadn't noticed. He felt more tired by the hour, with no reprieve from sleep. And maybe that exhaustion is what's causing him to have such a hard time accepting that this is, indeed Ichigen.
It does seem just like him...
He tangles a hand into his own hair, pressing on the thought even further, before finally resigning to it. The dead do get resurrected here, don't they? It's certainly not the first time, and surely won't be the last.
"I'm sorry, for failing you. For attacking you." Yukari mutters his first confession to Ichigen, to which the ghost gives an understanding smile.
"I knew you were going to leave eventually. It was what you needed. Did you ever find what you were looking for?"
"I truly believe I have. I met someone wonderful."
The conversation continues to delve into how he met, and started dating Curufin, and his realisation of the beauty within that relationship, and catching up on all that happened in Yukari's life since he left Ichigen's side.
Over the next twenty four hours, despite his exhaustion, Yukari can be seen laughing and escorting Ichigen everywhere, indulging in all manner of conversation. Perhaps you overhear one of their conversations and are curious about the contents of it - from conversations about Curufin, to lives of war and peace, and reconnecting to Yukari's past in general about being raised and trained under Ichigen's sword. Stories of vassals and orphans.
Or, perhaps, you see the chaos-driven mercenary shooting you a warm and genuine smile for a change as he escorts Ichigen around. If you approach him, he'll be inclined to introduce his first King to you. Unlike Yukari, Ichigen doesn't bite. And how could he with such a calm and warm demeanour?
[C. Don't save me, don't save me, 'cause I don't care. (28th - 29th - Closed to Curufin)]
Yukari barely feels like moving. He feels so heavy. Yet, he forces himself to do so anyway. Yukari and Ichigen seem to have reached the same conclusion, and Ichigen seems to grow more quiet because of it, his face more somber as he worries for his original vassal that he raised like a son. For the outings Yukari can barely keep himself upright, and even with coffee as they share a bench seems to be nearly impossible to endure. Yukari is visibly struggling to stay awake, though he will outright refuse it even to himself.
Ichigen sighs.
"Yukari, we should end this. I'm obviously causing you harm."
"No. Don't worry about something like that. If I die here, I'll be resurrected soon enough."
Is that really okay, though? Would Curufin understand his dying to save Ichigen this time? Or would it hurt the Elf to do so? And Yukari's face grimaces at the internal conflict.
Ichigen gives another soft smile. "You've been changing little by little, haven't you?I'm glad you've found your own beauty." A beat, as they listen to the river run by for a moment. "Even still, Yukari, you shouldn't die for me."
"Well, there's no guarantee I'll die."
It's a lie. They both know it. But Yukari still hasn't decided if he can kill this man only to save himself. Maybe once upon a time, he could. He had attacked Ichigen without hesitation, and had struck his King, drawing blood back then. But, even then, he didn't intend to go through with taking Ichigen's very life. Not if he didn't have to in order to break free. And now? Now he's even less sure he could do it. Ichigen had been a wonderful person to him, taking him in after his mother died. Pointing his sword at Ichigen at this point would feel similar to pointing his sword at Curufin. It made his chest tighten.
He knows he'll come back and be resurrected. But Ichigen? He's not so sure it would work the same way. The little clairvoyance Yukari has wouldn't give him anything in the way of an actual answer, and it made him uneasy.
Surely, Curufin will understand.
What: Ghost Event
Where: Around Hadriel
When: 6/21 - 6/29
Warnings: Emotional trauma, violence, physical deteriouration, ghost death; will update as needed.
[A. Until you die; until you're alive. (21st-25th)]
Yukari's out and about, picking up new fabrics and some general groceries. Occasionally, he'll see someone reacting strangely, and even start talking to themselves, and he cocks his head a little, observing with mild curiousity. But, before long, he dismisses it. Not his circus, not his monkeys. He carries a bag of groceries in one arm, and totes a carrier of folded cloth in the other as he heads away from the shops. He debates if he should make a small trip to Curufin's. The Elf is always coming to his house. Perhaps because Curufin's family lives with Curufin as well, and Yukari's place is room for them to be alone and comfortable together. That's what Yukari believes, anyway. He's never bothered asking, and it's never worried him either.
When Yukari rounds the corner, he's snapped from his reverie, and he grips the grocery bag a little tighter to resist dropping it in surprise, blinking and staring. He feels his breath snag. Is that... Is that Ichigen-sama?
One thing's for sure, that's definitely a thing that at least looks like him. Yukari shifts uncomfortably, and straightens his posture, moving to walk past the ghost yet never taking his gaze off of it. And, as he starts to walk away, the ghost seems to follow him. The look on Yukari's face is nothing short of unsettled. However, so long as he keeps an eye on Ichigen, he permits the ghost to follow him, trying to figure out why the ghost is here.
Over the span of the next few days, he'll be constantly walking around Hadriel, with his focus on Ichigen, staring at him. Occasionally, when Ichigen calls his name, or smiles at him, Yukari might visibly pale. But he doesn't converse back with it, not yet. And the ghost seems to be okay with this. He'll lead it places and then just sit on a bench, or stand in place, as he continues to stare; observing to see if this is some sort of joke. Which, as Ichigen keeps going about, and speaks in haiku as he makes observations of the caves, the less it appears like a joke.
Despite his growing fatigue, he repeats this course of action, day in and day out, not particularly concerned where he's going or sitting. Perhaps he's stepped on your foot, or taken the spot you were just about to sit in yourself. Maybe he's bumped or full on crashed into you, which he'll just move around you without an apology and continue going like he hit nothing at all, never breaking his stare on Ichigen.
[B. Until you see, how could you believe? (26th-27th)]
It isn't until a handful of days later that Yukari finally speaks to him. Standing near the shops, Ichigen looks concerned about Yukari's growing fatigue. Ichigen is the first to speak today finally asks him, "What's on your mind, Yukari?"
It takes Yukari a moment to answer. He has a barrage of questions, and each one more complicated than the last. And with Ichigen observing him, he's sure the ghost is fully aware of what lies beneath Yukari's surface. Ichigen always was, no matter how Yukari tried to hide it. With that, he chooses the most prominent question.
"Are you really Ichigen-sama?"
"It seems that way, doesn't it? Either way, I am here." The ghost is gentle, warm, and sincere.
Yukari merely folds his arms in thought and responds with a hmmm... It certainly seems like Ichigen.
"Yukari, you should be taking care of your health." Ichigen says it almost warily. It wasn't that Yukari hadn't noticed. He felt more tired by the hour, with no reprieve from sleep. And maybe that exhaustion is what's causing him to have such a hard time accepting that this is, indeed Ichigen.
It does seem just like him...
He tangles a hand into his own hair, pressing on the thought even further, before finally resigning to it. The dead do get resurrected here, don't they? It's certainly not the first time, and surely won't be the last.
"I'm sorry, for failing you. For attacking you." Yukari mutters his first confession to Ichigen, to which the ghost gives an understanding smile.
"I knew you were going to leave eventually. It was what you needed. Did you ever find what you were looking for?"
"I truly believe I have. I met someone wonderful."
The conversation continues to delve into how he met, and started dating Curufin, and his realisation of the beauty within that relationship, and catching up on all that happened in Yukari's life since he left Ichigen's side.
Over the next twenty four hours, despite his exhaustion, Yukari can be seen laughing and escorting Ichigen everywhere, indulging in all manner of conversation. Perhaps you overhear one of their conversations and are curious about the contents of it - from conversations about Curufin, to lives of war and peace, and reconnecting to Yukari's past in general about being raised and trained under Ichigen's sword. Stories of vassals and orphans.
Or, perhaps, you see the chaos-driven mercenary shooting you a warm and genuine smile for a change as he escorts Ichigen around. If you approach him, he'll be inclined to introduce his first King to you. Unlike Yukari, Ichigen doesn't bite. And how could he with such a calm and warm demeanour?
[C. Don't save me, don't save me, 'cause I don't care. (28th - 29th - Closed to Curufin)]
Yukari barely feels like moving. He feels so heavy. Yet, he forces himself to do so anyway. Yukari and Ichigen seem to have reached the same conclusion, and Ichigen seems to grow more quiet because of it, his face more somber as he worries for his original vassal that he raised like a son. For the outings Yukari can barely keep himself upright, and even with coffee as they share a bench seems to be nearly impossible to endure. Yukari is visibly struggling to stay awake, though he will outright refuse it even to himself.
Ichigen sighs.
"Yukari, we should end this. I'm obviously causing you harm."
"No. Don't worry about something like that. If I die here, I'll be resurrected soon enough."
Is that really okay, though? Would Curufin understand his dying to save Ichigen this time? Or would it hurt the Elf to do so? And Yukari's face grimaces at the internal conflict.
Ichigen gives another soft smile. "You've been changing little by little, haven't you?I'm glad you've found your own beauty." A beat, as they listen to the river run by for a moment. "Even still, Yukari, you shouldn't die for me."
"Well, there's no guarantee I'll die."
It's a lie. They both know it. But Yukari still hasn't decided if he can kill this man only to save himself. Maybe once upon a time, he could. He had attacked Ichigen without hesitation, and had struck his King, drawing blood back then. But, even then, he didn't intend to go through with taking Ichigen's very life. Not if he didn't have to in order to break free. And now? Now he's even less sure he could do it. Ichigen had been a wonderful person to him, taking him in after his mother died. Pointing his sword at Ichigen at this point would feel similar to pointing his sword at Curufin. It made his chest tighten.
He knows he'll come back and be resurrected. But Ichigen? He's not so sure it would work the same way. The little clairvoyance Yukari has wouldn't give him anything in the way of an actual answer, and it made him uneasy.
Surely, Curufin will understand.