[He knew Ronan would be angry - knew he'd be furious, knew it wouldn't go well. So Adam can't say that he didn't expect this, even while it's making him miserable. But even so, even if he expected it, he doesn't want it. He doesn't want Ronan swearing at him and walking away, as if he's going to get his things and... just leave.
But he knows there isn't anything he can do. If he goes after Ronan it'll only get worse. And what can he say, anyway? Ronan doesn't care. Ronan doesn't give a shit that this had to happen, that it wasn't even Adam's choice. He went along with it, it's what he would have chosen if the choice had been up to him. And apparently that's enough to taint him in Ronan's eyes, enough to be unforgivable.
It's bitterly unfair. It's not that Adam thinks what he did was right - how could Aurora's death ever be right? It's that he thinks, he knows that it was the only thing he could do. Neither he nor Aurora was willing to let Ronan die, and Ronan wasn't in any state to be making a decision. It's unfair that Ronan isn't even trying to see that, that he's putting all the blame on Adam, turning him into - something to be walked away from.
Ronan can't even look at him.
He doesn't follow. There's nothing left he can say.]
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But he knows there isn't anything he can do. If he goes after Ronan it'll only get worse. And what can he say, anyway? Ronan doesn't care. Ronan doesn't give a shit that this had to happen, that it wasn't even Adam's choice. He went along with it, it's what he would have chosen if the choice had been up to him. And apparently that's enough to taint him in Ronan's eyes, enough to be unforgivable.
It's bitterly unfair. It's not that Adam thinks what he did was right - how could Aurora's death ever be right? It's that he thinks, he knows that it was the only thing he could do. Neither he nor Aurora was willing to let Ronan die, and Ronan wasn't in any state to be making a decision. It's unfair that Ronan isn't even trying to see that, that he's putting all the blame on Adam, turning him into - something to be walked away from.
Ronan can't even look at him.
He doesn't follow. There's nothing left he can say.]