[He lets his fingers tangle with Ronan's. It's such a simple gesture, a small one, but it quiets some part of him that had been frightened - had been worried, on some level, that Ronan might not reach out like that again. He wants to say yes, yes, you shouldn't have left, but that's not helpful, and on top of that it's selfish. He didn't like having Ronan gone - he hated it - but he can't dictate what Ronan does. Especially in that moment, he couldn't have.
The weight of Ronan in the bed next to him is a comfort. Adam has gotten used to sleeping next to someone, next to Ronan in particular, and it was one of many small things that set his life askew. It's no surprise that Ronan has become such an integral part of Adam's day-to-day life, but it's something that is difficult to truly understand unless Ronan isn't there.]
I'm not afraid of your anger.
[His voice is quiet, a soft bit of disturbance in the darkness. But he means it. Ronan knows that, he's sure - he knows that Adam isn't afraid of him, that he's never thought for a moment that Ronan might hurt him. Not like that, anyway, and any other hurt can be easily healed with careful words and intimate touches.]
You're not a monster - you're not a bomb. You're just a person.
[He doesn't know if saying that helps. He's being truthful, and that's all he can do.]
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The weight of Ronan in the bed next to him is a comfort. Adam has gotten used to sleeping next to someone, next to Ronan in particular, and it was one of many small things that set his life askew. It's no surprise that Ronan has become such an integral part of Adam's day-to-day life, but it's something that is difficult to truly understand unless Ronan isn't there.]
I'm not afraid of your anger.
[His voice is quiet, a soft bit of disturbance in the darkness. But he means it. Ronan knows that, he's sure - he knows that Adam isn't afraid of him, that he's never thought for a moment that Ronan might hurt him. Not like that, anyway, and any other hurt can be easily healed with careful words and intimate touches.]
You're not a monster - you're not a bomb. You're just a person.
[He doesn't know if saying that helps. He's being truthful, and that's all he can do.]
You don't scare me.