[ Gansey is searching their stores for something palatable. Eventually he comes across something that looks like canned chocolate pudding. Satisfied, he grabs a can opener, and works it across the metal while Noah talks.

It's a good distraction for how uncomfortable this makes him. He hates thinking of any of them in that situation. ]

He told me about the train. How all of you were in separate carriages.

[ He looks up. ]

That must have been awful. You told me once that you didn't know how to be the person you used to be, anymore. Is that still how you feel?