You didn't have to live with the tension for the last few months.

[Everything leading up to the kiss was terrible. Noah pulls back from the embrace then - they aren't talking about Noah's death, about Gansey's survivor's guilt. He wipes at his eyes quickly with the back of his hand, as if that'll hide the whole over emotional last few moments they shared.

He's not really embarrassed by it. All Noah is left is what Cabeswater salvaged from a dying boy, and even much of that has bled away, shame being a large part of what was lost. He doesn't want to overload Gansey, though. He still is settling in. He's always taken responsibility for their feelings, their problems.

Noah takes a deep breath and gives a sigh, leaning back against the counter again.]

I'm pretty sure that's what killed me. The yeti was incidental.