[Despite the fact that much of what he says makes her want to drop her hands at her sides and ball them into fists, she doesn't. She stays stone still; the only movement is in her facial expressions as she tries very hard to remain neutral looking, empathetic even, and not let the frustration or defensiveness she's beginning to feel show in her eyes.]
You remember now, Taako. So you must remember what it was like back then. Everyone was so unhappy. Lup was unhappy with what was happening to that world. With what we had done. And then she disappeared.
[It had been the final straw in what had made her enact her plan. Lup, who's plan they had gone through with in the first place. Lup, who was so disturbed by the outcome of that plan. Lup, who had once railed at them against even the idea of hurting a world with their decisions--gone, suddenly, with nothing more than a note. What was Lucretia supposed to think?]
None of us knew where she had gone or why, but I thought--I thought maybe she'd gone to undo some of the damage we'd done with the Relics. Damage I also wanted to undo. We couldn't find her then, Taako. I thought-- I thought my plan was the only way to fix things. Maybe I was wrong about that, but at the time I could see no other way.
[She doesn't want to give ground. He has every right to be angry, but she has always had her reasons for what happened. Her reasons were the only thing that kept her going, along with the idea that someday they would all be together again. She has never let go of that. It was not a perfect plan, it was cruel, certainly, but she is sure Taako himself could have done no better with the options available to them.]
I'm not asking you to forgive me. I only say that I'm sorry so you know that I am. I don't expect things to just be all right now--that would be foolish. Maybe you'll never forgive me. Maybe you'll never speak to me again. And I will have to live with that.
Is that--Is that what you want? [It's an honest question, not meant as a taunt. She sincerely doesn't know what he'd prefer from her, but she's prepared to give him just about anything.]
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You remember now, Taako. So you must remember what it was like back then. Everyone was so unhappy. Lup was unhappy with what was happening to that world. With what we had done. And then she disappeared.
[It had been the final straw in what had made her enact her plan. Lup, who's plan they had gone through with in the first place. Lup, who was so disturbed by the outcome of that plan. Lup, who had once railed at them against even the idea of hurting a world with their decisions--gone, suddenly, with nothing more than a note. What was Lucretia supposed to think?]
None of us knew where she had gone or why, but I thought--I thought maybe she'd gone to undo some of the damage we'd done with the Relics. Damage I also wanted to undo. We couldn't find her then, Taako. I thought-- I thought my plan was the only way to fix things. Maybe I was wrong about that, but at the time I could see no other way.
[She doesn't want to give ground. He has every right to be angry, but she has always had her reasons for what happened. Her reasons were the only thing that kept her going, along with the idea that someday they would all be together again. She has never let go of that. It was not a perfect plan, it was cruel, certainly, but she is sure Taako himself could have done no better with the options available to them.]
I'm not asking you to forgive me. I only say that I'm sorry so you know that I am. I don't expect things to just be all right now--that would be foolish. Maybe you'll never forgive me. Maybe you'll never speak to me again. And I will have to live with that.
Is that--Is that what you want? [It's an honest question, not meant as a taunt. She sincerely doesn't know what he'd prefer from her, but she's prepared to give him just about anything.]