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you're part of a machine [OPEN/CLOSED]
Who: Rey/Safronov and Nick Valentine (feat Alphys) + a couple open prompts.
What: Finding out that she has limited time left before her brain melts due to the infection that led to her death,Rey Safronov suffers a few blackout episodes before she is able to bring her successor back.
Where: Abandoned shop, Science lab, Robot House (1401).
When: March catch-all (feel free to specify dates in the subject line when tagging an open prompt if it's important).
Warnings: Suicidal ideations and other heavy subjects.
7th-19th; Abandoned Shop [OPEN]
(are you insane like me, been in pain like me?)
The headaches only got worse as the days went by. Sometimes, she would hear the most unbearable ringing in her ears, like a grenade had just gone off right next to her head. More frequent came the nosebleeds, and within a week it became blatantly obvious that Safronov was working on borrowed time. She knew this, and there was no pride in being right.
Her memories at the Russian command center were vague at first, but over time she began to recollect her life more. Perhaps it was due to the infection constantly reminding her in the forms of distractions that were getting increasingly more difficult to ignore, but she remembers it all now: She had failed in her objective to destroy the synthetic's hub at the Grigoryevich Underground Center. As a result, its systems had trapped her. Hooked her up to a seat and sent a needle through the port to her brain.
It's not much unlike the needle that her successor had evidently worked from scratch, which had been used to unintentionally bring Safronov back to the forefront. Such a crude design, but one that did the job it was supposed to. All Safronov needed to do was make sure it did its job even better. Her DYI handiwork was all over the shop she had set up base in, so that she could labor on in peace. Peace that was becoming more frequently disrupted through headaches and, now, blackouts.
Sometimes, she would lose track of what she was doing, only to wake up on the floor after trashing the extra tables, chairs, and shelves around her. Quite a racket, for those passing by on the outside and happen to notice a light beaming in the mostly empty establishment.
At some point, it gets even worse. Blackout. Then, another bloody headache. Literal this time. Blood is coming out of her nose as she grips her head, screaming and rolling on the floor. The agony is searing through her skull, electrifying her body and she feels it under her skin.
One bullet should do the trick. In her blinding pain, she crawls across the floor, to the table where she had been working at to find her gun there. Or, Rey's gun. Her successor's gun. It isn't like she hasn't done this before. This is her body, after all. A different owner has taken it now, but she recognizes the subtle flaws and blemishes that were special to her.
Regardless of whose gun this belongs to, it's Safronov's pill now. Just what the doctor ordered.
20th; Science Lab [CLOSED to Alphyssciencelizard + Nick Valentine synthedick]
(do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?)
Of course, her only 'remedy' had been less than ideal, though unsuccessful. In the end, she can't.
This isn't Safronov's life to take away anymore. Despite the pain that Rey had so badly wanted to erase, it was clear that she didn't want to be removed from the world entirely. Not when there were people who cared for her.
More than anyone ever cared about Safronov. There would never be anyone to mourn over her death, and she was better off that way for it. It gives her less reason to cling to this life, or lament the inevitable.
Still wracked with the hot pulsing pain tearing through her skull, Safronov somehow manages to make it across this strange and hot city, back to the place where she had began. While most seem to arrive here through that Door, she came through different means. Unlike the people here, however, she has an exit strategy.
Her nose is bleeding once again as Safronov opens the door to the science lab, the bag holding her supplies that she will need for this slung over her shoulder.
"Doctor?" Safronov calls into the lab before entering. She can't recall if the reptilian scientist had ever designated herself with such a title, but that is what she is called now. Whether the fact that such a creature could even be called a scientist has never struck her as strange, however. Perhaps a little bit of her successor remains, grounding them both, or it's just that Safronov has bigger concerns. "Are you here--?"
Oh. Oh no. Not again--
Safronov grunts, staggering forward while the door slams behind her. Eyes squeezed shut, she finds a wall to rest on, fighting to remain conscious this time.
30th; House 1401 [OPEN to close CR]
(you can't wake up, this is not a dream.)
Nearly a week and a half passes and Rey's body barely stirs in her bed, though it's hard to say if she still even is Rey. If not for the steady breathing, one could easily mistake the prone woman for a corpse.
Though she doesn't show it, every so often she is cognizant of her surroundings. Voices of those standing over her, their presence nearby. She hears, she listens, but she could never reply.
Until the ninth day since Safronov had gone rifling through their head once again. Only her eyes open, and for the first several hours all she can do is stare at the ceiling over her bed. Process her surroundings, feelings... who she is, why she's here, what happened. She remembers her name -- or a name, more like it. And a few other things. The mysteries keep her thoughts more than occupied for the long hours she can't move.
And then she blinks.
Isn't it about time you wake up, sleepyhead? says a quiet whisper in the back of her mind. Where has she heard that before? In a dream?
The questions flutter away as she closes her eyes again, until she hears the sounds of footsteps approaching the opened door to her room.
To what should come as no one's surprise, curled up at the end of the bed is a three-legged cat, whose head lifts at the prospect of company. They will find themselves being stared at by the one, single eye belonging to the creature, before yawning as he stretches his front leg over the covers.
What: Finding out that she has limited time left before her brain melts due to the infection that led to her death,
Where: Abandoned shop, Science lab, Robot House (1401).
When: March catch-all (feel free to specify dates in the subject line when tagging an open prompt if it's important).
Warnings: Suicidal ideations and other heavy subjects.
7th-19th; Abandoned Shop [OPEN]
(are you insane like me, been in pain like me?)
The headaches only got worse as the days went by. Sometimes, she would hear the most unbearable ringing in her ears, like a grenade had just gone off right next to her head. More frequent came the nosebleeds, and within a week it became blatantly obvious that Safronov was working on borrowed time. She knew this, and there was no pride in being right.
Her memories at the Russian command center were vague at first, but over time she began to recollect her life more. Perhaps it was due to the infection constantly reminding her in the forms of distractions that were getting increasingly more difficult to ignore, but she remembers it all now: She had failed in her objective to destroy the synthetic's hub at the Grigoryevich Underground Center. As a result, its systems had trapped her. Hooked her up to a seat and sent a needle through the port to her brain.
It's not much unlike the needle that her successor had evidently worked from scratch, which had been used to unintentionally bring Safronov back to the forefront. Such a crude design, but one that did the job it was supposed to. All Safronov needed to do was make sure it did its job even better. Her DYI handiwork was all over the shop she had set up base in, so that she could labor on in peace. Peace that was becoming more frequently disrupted through headaches and, now, blackouts.
Sometimes, she would lose track of what she was doing, only to wake up on the floor after trashing the extra tables, chairs, and shelves around her. Quite a racket, for those passing by on the outside and happen to notice a light beaming in the mostly empty establishment.
At some point, it gets even worse. Blackout. Then, another bloody headache. Literal this time. Blood is coming out of her nose as she grips her head, screaming and rolling on the floor. The agony is searing through her skull, electrifying her body and she feels it under her skin.
One bullet should do the trick. In her blinding pain, she crawls across the floor, to the table where she had been working at to find her gun there. Or, Rey's gun. Her successor's gun. It isn't like she hasn't done this before. This is her body, after all. A different owner has taken it now, but she recognizes the subtle flaws and blemishes that were special to her.
Regardless of whose gun this belongs to, it's Safronov's pill now. Just what the doctor ordered.
20th; Science Lab [CLOSED to Alphys
sciencelizard + Nick Valentine synthedick](do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?)
Of course, her only 'remedy' had been less than ideal, though unsuccessful. In the end, she can't.
This isn't Safronov's life to take away anymore. Despite the pain that Rey had so badly wanted to erase, it was clear that she didn't want to be removed from the world entirely. Not when there were people who cared for her.
More than anyone ever cared about Safronov. There would never be anyone to mourn over her death, and she was better off that way for it. It gives her less reason to cling to this life, or lament the inevitable.
Still wracked with the hot pulsing pain tearing through her skull, Safronov somehow manages to make it across this strange and hot city, back to the place where she had began. While most seem to arrive here through that Door, she came through different means. Unlike the people here, however, she has an exit strategy.
Her nose is bleeding once again as Safronov opens the door to the science lab, the bag holding her supplies that she will need for this slung over her shoulder.
"Doctor?" Safronov calls into the lab before entering. She can't recall if the reptilian scientist had ever designated herself with such a title, but that is what she is called now. Whether the fact that such a creature could even be called a scientist has never struck her as strange, however. Perhaps a little bit of her successor remains, grounding them both, or it's just that Safronov has bigger concerns. "Are you here--?"
Oh. Oh no. Not again--
Safronov grunts, staggering forward while the door slams behind her. Eyes squeezed shut, she finds a wall to rest on, fighting to remain conscious this time.
30th; House 1401 [OPEN to close CR]
(you can't wake up, this is not a dream.)
Nearly a week and a half passes and Rey's body barely stirs in her bed, though it's hard to say if she still even is Rey. If not for the steady breathing, one could easily mistake the prone woman for a corpse.
Though she doesn't show it, every so often she is cognizant of her surroundings. Voices of those standing over her, their presence nearby. She hears, she listens, but she could never reply.
Until the ninth day since Safronov had gone rifling through their head once again. Only her eyes open, and for the first several hours all she can do is stare at the ceiling over her bed. Process her surroundings, feelings... who she is, why she's here, what happened. She remembers her name -- or a name, more like it. And a few other things. The mysteries keep her thoughts more than occupied for the long hours she can't move.
And then she blinks.
Isn't it about time you wake up, sleepyhead? says a quiet whisper in the back of her mind. Where has she heard that before? In a dream?
The questions flutter away as she closes her eyes again, until she hears the sounds of footsteps approaching the opened door to her room.
To what should come as no one's surprise, curled up at the end of the bed is a three-legged cat, whose head lifts at the prospect of company. They will find themselves being stared at by the one, single eye belonging to the creature, before yawning as he stretches his front leg over the covers.
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[This pain would have sent a normal person in tears, begging for death. But Safronov is not that person. She is not weak. She has waded her way through blood and corpses in a country ravaged by slaughter.]
No. Not good. [She pauses to level her heavy breaths. Sweat beads down her face as she brings the fist that was going for the gun to her temple.] Have to... compartmentalize it.
[Sort the pain out like you would organize files. And Safronov is nothing if not a control freak who needs order.]
(cw: prostitution, drug mention)
and Laura has lived through experiences that would break a lot of people. she may not have dealt with those experiences in the healthiest of ways, and she may have had to die to get her freedom, but she's still free
she wrinkles her brow, confused] Compartmentalize it? How're you gonna do that?
[and this is probably the most controlled Laura has ever been with no cocaine and no johns]
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By not putting bullets in our brain. That is starting point.
[Her eyes narrow as she wipes the blood trickling from her nose. Christ, not this shit again...]
no subject
By "our" are you using the royal "we" or something else?
[she has a napkin in her purse. she pulls it out and offers it to her. she doesn't move her foot from the gun, though]
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"We". Us. This head belongs to more than one me.
[When Laura offers the napkin, Safronov reluctantly accepts, bringing it to soak up the rest of the blood trickling from her nostril.]
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Yeah? I'm assuming you're not Rey. So, who are you?
no subject
My designation was-- is Safronov. I believe I made that clear days ago.
[Or maybe she's making the assumption that everyone here reads the digital bulletin board.]
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Yeah, I must've been busy at the bakery at the time. I didn't see anything.
So, where's Rey?
[Laura's usually up to date with it, but she's been feeling out of sorts, so she let it slip a little]
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She got locked down. Been trying to fix that.
[The best way Safronov knows how, anyway.]
no subject
Locked down how?
[she's not budging her foot from that gun]
no subject
Same as I was. Though I will not know for certain until I look inside our head. See what she did.
no subject
Look inside your head? How do you plan to do that?
no subject
[She glances to the black box when had been working on at the table.]
And that.
no subject
[Laura follows her glance to the black box]
What's that?
no subject
[Honestly, if someone doesn't know this much, then Safronov wonders if there's any point in explaining it.]
Conduit. Maybe. [That was the idea, anyway.]
no subject
[Laura doesn't know that Rey's not human, though she's figuring it out rapidly]
A conduit into your mind?
no subject
[So anything goes, really. Safronov just has to use her own intellect to solve this one. No convenient android to help put her back together and fine tune some memories for a change.]
Yes. Conduit. Our brain is not wired like organics.
no subject
[this sounds both fishy and dangerous]
So instead of--of an organic brain, you've got a computer?
no subject
[It is sketchy, and Safronov is aware of the risks. Like a computer, erasing or altering a file in the registry could result in a full system shutdown. The brain is no different.]
Yes.
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[she knows nothing about computers, she's from 1989. she knows that the Hornes, the richest family in town, have one of their own but the Palmers never got one]
Huh. I should've known when she gave me her age. I just assumed it was magic.
no subject
[Safronov is starting to get the feeling that the infection has imprinted them into this body indefinitely. Even if it were possible, she doubts that their data could just be transferred into a new vessel.
[What a pain.]
Magic? [She raises a brow.] There is no such thing.
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[she sounds (and likely looks) mind-boggled. where she's from, computers are still big and bulky and usually only in two colors. the idea that computers could grow so advanced, they'd be able to store. . . personalities? souls? it's a lot to take in]
Yes, there is. Lup has magic. Do you know her?
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[Which Safronov probably would. FREYJA was as much a part of her memories as everyone else is.]
Negative. I am not acquainted with my successor's circle. [Though it sounds to her like there are quite a few who care for her well-being.]
no subject
[and Laura thought she had issues with keeping her identities separate]
None of them have tried to talk to you? [that's strange. Laura got the impression that Rey was well liked]
no subject
[Though Safronov is used to managing it, and would presume her successor to be no different. Perhaps not, though?]
They have. I simply needed few days to ensure I am minimal risk to others.
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tw: suicide mention.
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