Event Log: Tears of Joy

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Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the Tears of Joy event
Where: All over the city
When: April 21st-April 30th
Warnings: Lots and lots of regret

Sorrow's back! That's great, except for the sudden wave of sorrow and regret blanketing the city. And boy is it strong. It's hard to think about anything except all the times you've hurt someone, let someone down, failed. It's hard to get through your day while your mind is full of those thoughts, but you have to, right? Otherwise you might be letting someone else down.

Everything would feel a lot better if you could just find a way to make up for what you've done. A way to earn forgiveness. Do you deserve it? Maybe not, but if you can figure out the right thing to do, it won't matter - you'll make up for all the wrongs you committed and everything will be fine. So what will you do? Clean your friend's entire house? Hunt monsters and leave their heads at your ex's doorstep, like a particularly upsetting cat? Or is there something else even more drastic you can do?

Or maybe this isn't really affecting you at all - but someone else feels like they've wronged you, and they want to make it up to you. Are you going to take advantage of this? Pretend it's not happening? You do still feel kind of annoyed by that thing they did that time...

► This log covers April 21st-April 30th.
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[pocketspa]

[He sighs, somewhere between the relief he needs and a huff of misplaced breath.]

I know, I mean-- I know, I just keep feeling stupid dumb shit because we're stuck in fucking lich hell and like, if I couldn't deal with my own feelings before, here we FUCKING are.

[At this point he's just frusturated. Why are there so many feelings all over the place! It should be illegal. But he speaks, soft again, more secrets just for them.]

I don't want to forget. I don't-- I can't. I fuckin-- I told you, I thrashed Barry and Krav when I even thought that could happen. But I j... you deserve me to be good, you know? To not be so fuckin' me all the time.

[Because who has he ever been on his own? A killer. A danger. A libility to himself and others. Always afraid if someone will have him, because someone has to. He lets himself lay heavy against her, hair falling messily around his face.]

I just can't be alone again.

[restinglichface]

[Lup keeps that palm of hers pressed to his chest, pressed against his heart, their heads bowed together, bodies a near perfect mirror of one another. Taako whispers, voice low, into her ear, spilling secret truths held in for so long he doesn't know what they really mean anymore.

And then, without any hesitation, the woman lifts her free hand and smacks her twin right upside the head.]

Shut it, dingus. I want you to be you. You're a total asshole and so am I. That's all I want. Don't ever change a fucking thing.

[There's more to it, sure, years alone that have changed him, pulled them apart, but Lup means every word. She wants this Taako, the man standing in front of her, just the way he is. It's not a perfect fit anymore, they aren't quite the matched set they used to be, but this is the proof of how much they've gone through, the years spent fighting to get back to one another. It's important. It matters.]

[pocketspa]

[Man, he's lucky to have her. Most people might not be so thankful to be smacked across the head (outwardly, Taako included), but she always knows when things get too dark. When their hearts are connected and he starts dragging her down, she pulls him out of his thoughts and from his pit of wherever the hell he's slipping. This is why he needs her. This is why he needs someone.

Outwardly, he sputters, pulling back and then bumping his forehead into hers none too gently.]

Jeez, I try to say something about bettering myself or whatever, but nah, back to dicksquad with both of us. You just want me to excuse your bad behavior.

[But he's grinning, and he leans his head back in gentler now, bumping their shoulders.]

You're all I need, too. Don't go runnin' off on me for any dumb shit, alright? We're only gonna get this together. 'Ss better that way.

[restinglichface]

Like I need the excuse.

[They may not be the perfect match they once were, all long limbs and freckled skin and long hair, but their smiles are a perfect mirror image of each other, grinning and sharp, just the barest hint of teeth hidden beneath their lips. They bump together and Lup tangles her fingers into her twin's hair, giving his thick locks a tug before she's wrapping him up again.

They can stay like this for awhile, curled up together, the rest of the world forgotten.]

C'mon, I love Barry an' all, but no one's as fun as the two of us together. You know that, goobus. We aren't going anywhere without the other. And let's be honest, this place deserves us at our worst together.

[pocketspa]

[He curls in with her touch, finding the places they fit into each other without words. Fuck the world. They're five again and this is Fort Taaco and none of it has happened yet. In this moment, it's a problem for their future.]

Nobody deserves our best. Fuck 'em.

[Taako sighs, and does his best to make everything feel right. It's quiet, and not something he almost ever gives. But that's how he knows it'll matter. He knows she'll know it matters, too.]

Love you.

[restinglichface]

You an' me against the world, babe. No one stands a chance when we're together.

[In a few days, these feelings of guilt are going to fade just as they do after every emotion-fueled event ends, but at least the two are leaving it behind even stronger than ever, not as fragmented or confused as past events have left them. With that push from the gods, they've finally been able to broach some topics that have needed to be brought up for years now.

Maybe neither of them had really wanted to talk about them still, but they did and it's done. And here they are, still curled up on one another, Lup's overpowering love for her twin beating in time with her heart. Kicking the rest of the world out and just pretending it was the two of them all alone again seems like a good idea. Let the boys rustle up dinner on their own for once. The Taacos are good in here.]

Love you too, nerd.

[pocketspa]

[He kind of wants to laugh, but not really because it's funny. It's just nice, to have this. To have something he knows is his. Forget the world and his mistakes and her missteps. He's not moving.

So instead she can just feel him chuckle a bit against her, letting his weight flop in and holding himself less.]

Yeah, yeah, dork. You're stuck here now. Better settle in.

[Neither of them are going anywhere.]