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hadriel_logs2018-11-08 11:16 pm
northerndragon) wrote in hadriel_logs2018-11-08 11:16 pm
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[OPEN] Be my mirror, my sword and shield
Who: OPEN. Jon Snow and… maybe your character?
What: Open direwolf meet and greets, horse exercise, hanging out at the Speakeasy, planting trees, and attempting to start to come to terms with some extremely difficult truths about his identity: the man he thought was his father, and idolized, was not; his parents accidentally started a war with their elopement; that throne people have been fighting over for seven seasons should have been his all along. [This is written in prose, but any format is fine.]
Where: All around Hadriel.
When: Late October/first half of November, up to the upcoming memory share event. Fourth Wall is technically over, but since this log is partly intended to deal with the fallout of those events, fourth wallers are still welcome for threads set before the end of October, or threads set after that if they have apped and been accepted.
Warnings: Jon is a good guy, but interactions with him always carry a general Game of Thrones warning, mostly for violence (medieval warfare and justice) and adult themes (heavy sexual content, various incestuous relationships that are varying levels of scandalous and central to the plot, etc). Anything set during or after Fourth Wall has an additional disclaimer for the fact that he's learned about his actual parentage during this event… which means, sorry dudes, but he's just figured out that the girl he's fallen hard for is his aunt. The show has not addressed the potential problems with this one way or another yet... but while the books suggest that marrying your aunt or uncle is juuust within acceptable limits in their culture, it seems important to acknowledge that it's obviously way outside of acceptable limits in ours.
This log is intended to deal with the fallout of that revelation, so it's definitely going to come up in some of these prompts -- not least because his claim to the throne is better than hers if he chooses to pursue it. Still, you can leave me an ooc note about your comfort levels, avoid the prompts where he's visibly upset, set stuff a little before Fourth Wall or after the first week of November (where he's likely to be less upset about all of it), etc.
Prompts in the comments! Here's a visual reference for Ghost, by the way:
What: Open direwolf meet and greets, horse exercise, hanging out at the Speakeasy, planting trees, and attempting to start to come to terms with some extremely difficult truths about his identity: the man he thought was his father, and idolized, was not; his parents accidentally started a war with their elopement; that throne people have been fighting over for seven seasons should have been his all along. [This is written in prose, but any format is fine.]
Where: All around Hadriel.
When: Late October/first half of November, up to the upcoming memory share event. Fourth Wall is technically over, but since this log is partly intended to deal with the fallout of those events, fourth wallers are still welcome for threads set before the end of October, or threads set after that if they have apped and been accepted.
Warnings: Jon is a good guy, but interactions with him always carry a general Game of Thrones warning, mostly for violence (medieval warfare and justice) and adult themes (heavy sexual content, various incestuous relationships that are varying levels of scandalous and central to the plot, etc). Anything set during or after Fourth Wall has an additional disclaimer for the fact that he's learned about his actual parentage during this event… which means, sorry dudes, but he's just figured out that the girl he's fallen hard for is his aunt. The show has not addressed the potential problems with this one way or another yet... but while the books suggest that marrying your aunt or uncle is juuust within acceptable limits in their culture, it seems important to acknowledge that it's obviously way outside of acceptable limits in ours.
This log is intended to deal with the fallout of that revelation, so it's definitely going to come up in some of these prompts -- not least because his claim to the throne is better than hers if he chooses to pursue it. Still, you can leave me an ooc note about your comfort levels, avoid the prompts where he's visibly upset, set stuff a little before Fourth Wall or after the first week of November (where he's likely to be less upset about all of it), etc.
Prompts in the comments! Here's a visual reference for Ghost, by the way:
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And it was simply speculation at this point, as much as how she would have raised Jon had Rhaegar lived. Her son wouldn't have been groomed for the throne or become a king. But he likely still would have lead the way with this war that was coming.
"I'm young, sweetling, but I'm not so young that I don't know how to be a mother. My age doesn't matter anymore. It will always be the same, but as long as I am here, I can at least offer you what I couldn't before."
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"I know. But in the same way -- I'm older than you now. I was older than you when I joined the Watch, and I was a green boy then. Do you know how to be the mother of a son in his twenty-fourth year, his twenty-fifth? I'm not a little child. I can't -- be a little child for you."
There is a small part of him that wants to, and his words don't fully hide that part. Yet he's also aware that, for reasons related to their ages alone, there are things that he can teach her about the world, things she must never have had the chance to learn, although she seems wise for her years. It shouldn't be this way, yet it's better than never having met her at all.
The rest of it -- Aegon Targaryen, the would-be king, the Iron Throne that isn't his and that he doesn't much want, only he does want to see Cersei toppled from it as swiftly and finally as possible -- he can hardly stand to think about it any more than he has to. He can also hardly push his mind to seize on something else. It means everything, and it means nothing. These last few days have not been good days.
"But we'll do what we can. We'll talk about what we can. You'll let me find you the finest cloak I can -- can't have my mother going around looking like a beggar. You'll have your sword, and we'll go have a drink. I'll introduce you to people as my mother. They'll think it strange to see me with such a pretty young girl, otherwise."
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She might not be skilled at it at all. Her heart was swollen with emotion, aching with a need to give him something. A love, that hadn't been expressed since her husband had been killed. She didn't need a child, she simply needed her son, no matter if he was an adult or not. She could love him the same as she had her brothers, only deeper and truer, if that was possible.
"I know you don't need me to care for you, but just as you wish to look after me, I wish to do the same for you. You are not too old to have someone be concerned for you well being." She certainly would go out of her way to embarrass him. "Do not think of me as a child either. I am not a child but a woman wed and with a son, even if he is older than me."
She wouldn't be treated as his sister or ward. She was his mother and would remain that way.
"You are not ashamed to tell others I am your mother?"
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Still, he'd never spent hours and days as a boy truly wishing he could be a Targaryen. Who would wish for that? Most were dead and the two sad survivors lived in impoverished exile in Essos. He had wished to be a Stark. He had wished, greatly, to be his father's trueborn son. And he would have thought that he was more than a little bit past that, but in some ways it seems like a cruel jest: he can be his father's trueborn son, or he can be a Stark, but he cannot be both.
In the end, the reason the name isn't to his taste is that it's not his name. He's been Jon for his whole life. It's true that there was a brief time when he'd thought that he would hear it less and less, and had been resigned to it -- the days when most people addressed him as "Lord Commander," when he'd begun to feel nearly friendless. But that time is past, and he's King Jon now, and even the king part is strange to him, with "The King" already beginning to seem more like his name to his people than "Jon" in the weeks after they raised him.
To be Aegon Targaryen feels like it's to be someone else completely, and he doesn't yet know who that is. He's not sure there's a way to learn it in Hadriel; outside of Hadriel, it may not matter, because they may all forget every minute and word of this.
I would be sad to forget her.
"I know, and it isn't -- that I think you're a child. It's that no woman with a newborn babe in her arms expects the newborn babe to be a man grown a week later. She expects a babe, then a child, then a man: it's the way of things."
After a pause, he adds, carefully, "I was ashamed to be a bastard, but it was nothing I could change, so I tried to learn not to be.
"Now I'm not a bastard, I'm a trueborn prince... why would I be ashamed of you?" His father might be another story; the fact that he'd left his wife for Lyanna doesn't sit well, and Jon wishes desperately that they could talk again, knowing what he knows now. "We didn't have each other when I was three, or ten -- I'm sorry for that. But we have each other now, and I don't see the use in shame. Not about this."