[she's choking out blood and she looks like Sissy Spacek in "Carrie" after she got doused with the blood. it's just plain gross. she looks gross, she feels gross]

Not feelin' any better on this side, either.

[she tries to wipe her face off, but it's a futile effort. she doesn't care how much effort it takes for other people, but she's taking a long, hot bath when this is done]

No, at this point I think the damage is done. I need to accept my fate and make peace with it.