like a wildfire;

[spazzed]

Who: keith, shiro, lance, allura
What: catch-all for shenanigans during february
Where: casa voltron, possibly other places, who even knows
When: all month
Warnings: nothing just yet but will be updated as needed!

Comments

[marmoron]

[There are a lot of words competing to be said first, but the subtle comment about his behavior with Lance over the last week has all replies freezing over for a few seconds. This isn't a relevant thought right now, not addressing that right now--]

Forget about whether you can or can't regret it, Shiro. Things might've panned out like that, but you know that's not what I'm getting at.

[The words are spoken a bit quickly, not willing to accept the deflection.]

I mean... what do you even want to apologize to Adam for if you don't regret leaving?

[deadlining]

[ Shiro takes a moment to respond to this question. It's huge and difficult and it weighs him down heavily. He just has to keep breathing and approach this rationally. Except rationality is somehow so much harder when it's directed backwards instead of into the future. ]

I want to... I want to apologize for the way we ended, regardless. Even if I know I'd never have chosen any differently, it still wasn't fair to him.

[ He's never acknowledged this before, not out loud, and the echo of the words runs coldly down his back. ]

And... irrationally, I also just want to apologize for not having been there... when he... when he left.

[ When he died. Words Shiro has spoken before that are inexplicably hard now that he is reaching to the core of his feelings. ]

[marmoron]

[Keith mulls that over, brow furrowing. It's pretty clear from his expression that there's a lot he could say in response to all this, but is being careful about how he says it. Shiro's probably one of the few people he'll actually bother self-editing for.]

If you ask me, I think that would've made Adam madder. [A beat.] Maybe that's just me. Saying you're sorry doesn't mean a whole lot if nothing changes about your attitude.

[Which may or may not be why Keith doesn't do a whole lot of apologizing himself. He frowns.]

....is that your takeaway from this whole crazy ordeal? Not putting the wishes of loved ones first just in case?

[deadlining]

[ That gets a raised eyebrow from Shiro. Keith is asking a legitimate question, he supposes, but the idea is still a little bit odd to him. ]

No. I don't think probability has entered some strange conspiracy in which the choice that hurts someone I care about is always cosmically better.

[ Not that he'd entirely put it past the universe to do that to him. It seems just in line with how his life has been going. ]

My choice to go on the Kerberos mission wasn't for the greater good either, it was for myself only.

[marmoron]

[The mention and refuting of bizarre conspiracies aimed against them in particular gets a crooked half smile from Keith; something a touch jaded and tired.]

So lemme rephrase: are you going to put your desire to prove yourself above the wishes of loved ones again if that comes up again? What did you end up deciding here?