hadriel_logs | Event Log: All Or Nothing

Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the All Or Nothing event
Where: All over the city
When: April 24th-May 2nd
Warnings: None

You woke up today and you just... weren't feeling it. Feeling what? Well, anything. Nothing seems to get you excited, but nothing seems to make you mad or angry either, so maybe that's fine. Maybe it's better this way. It's not like you can get too worked up about it, in any case, so you might as well coast through your day, incredibly chill.

But that's not how it is for everyone. Your best friend might be feeling the exact opposite - you said they look nice today and they started crying with happiness. You ate half their lunch and they tried to punch you out. Everything's heightened, for some reason they just have absolutely no chill at all. You don't get it, but it's not a big deal.

Unless, of course, you switch, and suddenly it's the biggest deal of all time. The idea of controlling your emotions seems like a myth, and it's time to freak out over everything, positive and negative. It's gonna be a mood swingy week or so!

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Yes.

[her mind feels clear, clearer than it ever had before. once, she told the High Sparrow that she was no longer driven by the desires that had led her before in life. she lied. but now, she feels free of desires of any kind]

You said that fear is a powerful motivator and love is more abstract. And it's true.

Edited 2019-05-06 21:14 (UTC)

It is. I never really thought about it like that before until it was brought up, but people do stupid things out of fear.

[Except now he can't even remember what being afraid feels like anymore. Huh. That's weird.]

It seemed a little more obvious when I said it then.

They do. So of course when their queen was murdered and their king killed himself, they turned to the king's mother. Who promised them . . . I don't know what she promised them. But it alleviated their fears. Or stoked them to a direction of her liking.

[she feels free, for the first time in her life. free of the ambitions and desires that drove her to take up the sword, to become an expert in unarmed combat. it's strange. she's not sure if she should celebrate it or not]

Don't disregard yourself. It's clear enough now.

Edited 2019-05-07 05:52 (UTC)

They were vulnerable and she preyed on that. Back home, there's a cult that does the same thing. Tell people what they need to hear when they're dealing with a death or a loss or whatever. And people want to buy into it, to believe. So it works.

[It is clear now isn't it? Hm.]

There's something wrong. Not that it really matters, everything about this place is wrong. But something.

[Just stating a fact, he doesn't really care one way or the other.]

Cersei has always been good at preying on the vulnerable, even when it was her own son. That cult sounds as though it is made up of predators, going to those in their time of need and taking advantage of it.

[she was never in love with Tommen, but she had cared for him. at least she had until he allowed her to be taken and abused by the Faith of the Seven]

Something is always wrong in this place. Perhaps be more specific?

[at best, she can manage a mild curiosity]

She sounds terrible. It sucks you had to deal with that.

[The words come out, but there's no emotion behind them. He should feel bad for her, or say something a little more consoling, but he can't find those emotions right now.]

I'm not sure. Maybe it's nothing. It wouldn't matter in any case.

Thank you. I feel for the people of Westeros, having to live under the rule of someone so hateful.

[but not as much as usual. usually, the notion of Cersei as queen of Westeros is enough to send her into a rage, but the most she currently feels is a mild pity for those having to suffer her rule]

No, I suppose it wouldn't. Things are wrong here often, but it passes in time.

Maybe it's gotten better since you've been there? Anything is possible.

[Hey that's almost optimistic for him. Hm. That's new and different. Weird.]

That's true of everything isn't it? Gets better over time. I never really believed that until being here.

I know Daenerys Targaryen approaches with her armies and three dragons. And I know that Jon Snow has been proclaimed the King in the North. Both will be thorns in Cersei's side. Allied, they could overthrow her.

[optimism. she remembers feeling that, but it feels a long time ago]

I suppose it does? Has it for you? Gotten better over time?

There's dragons?

[Normally he should be really interested in that. Dragons are awesome. He wants to know more about dragons! But even though he rationally knows he should be, he just ... isn't.]

Slightly. I think about all the bad stuff a little less the further I get from it. And I don't wake up in the middle of the night in a panic because of things in the past. So yeah, I guess it has.

Yes, three of them. They call Daenerys the Mother of Dragons as she went into her husband's funeral pyre with three dragon eggs and emerged unburnt and with three baby dragons. They're all fully grown now.

[a fact which normally thrills her and fills her with hope and awe, but today she's simply stating facts, as though she would give the weather]

I'm glad for you. Truly, I am. Our pasts should not define us.

[that she manages a little more emotion behind, coupled with a small smile]

Is that how dragons are normally hatched?

[That seemed wrong, but he didn't know enough about the lore of dragons to know any better. Especially since dragons weren't real.]

They shouldn't but they really do try. It's hard to get away from. But it's getting better. Even in this place.

Honestly, I'm unsure. Dragons had been extinct for a long time before Daenerys' dragons hatched.

[she's never seen them before. dully, she feels as though she would like to see Cersei being fed to them, but even that desire feels dulled. numb]

This place is . . . strange. Yet, it can be good for people. I know that I've grown a great deal since I arrived.

[simply stating a fact]

So they're the last of their kind? That's a little sad.

[He says it, but there's no real meaning behind his words, as if he'd mentioned that the sky was blue.]

It's definitely that. But even the good comes at a cost. There's a lot of stuff I've found out about myself that I'm grateful for, but then a whole lot that I'd rather have not gone through.

But I guess that's life isn't it?

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