hadriel_logs | Event Log: All Or Nothing

Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the All Or Nothing event
Where: All over the city
When: April 24th-May 2nd
Warnings: None

You woke up today and you just... weren't feeling it. Feeling what? Well, anything. Nothing seems to get you excited, but nothing seems to make you mad or angry either, so maybe that's fine. Maybe it's better this way. It's not like you can get too worked up about it, in any case, so you might as well coast through your day, incredibly chill.

But that's not how it is for everyone. Your best friend might be feeling the exact opposite - you said they look nice today and they started crying with happiness. You ate half their lunch and they tried to punch you out. Everything's heightened, for some reason they just have absolutely no chill at all. You don't get it, but it's not a big deal.

Unless, of course, you switch, and suddenly it's the biggest deal of all time. The idea of controlling your emotions seems like a myth, and it's time to freak out over everything, positive and negative. It's gonna be a mood swingy week or so!

► This log covers April 24th-May 2nd
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I'm noticing that yes.

[He wriggles a little, because while he's feeling dead inside, there's a tiny, teensy part of him that remember that this is weird.]

I'm a terrible friend, you spend all your time consoling me, and I have breakdowns every other week that you have to talk me out of. That's not good friendship.

I'm glad.

[she just holds on tighter. good luck dislodging this particular limpet]

What if I don't care? What if I like helping you? Shouldn't my feelings come into this at some point?

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They should.

[Why weren't they? Huh. Strange.]

Why do you enjoy that? I'm just a project to fix. Like an old home that needs to be fully renovated.

[she sighs]

I enjoy it because you're a good, smart person who's been through a lot. I enjoy being around you. And you're so much more than that.

[He blinks. It's all things she's said before, but instead of immediately bristling and denying it he can actually stand there and process it.]

Thank you.

You've always been really kind to me, but I don't know why.

[she smiles at him warmly]

You're welcome.

I'm kind to you because I love you. Platonically. Because we're friends and I value our friendship. Because you deserve kindness. And because I want to.

[He stares at her blankly. His mind may be clear but that's still a lot for it to process. Being able to think rationally for the first time in months isn't putting him any closer to actually getting it.]

I still don't understand, but I appreciate it. I don't have any friends back home. At least not anymore.

[Joey would be, but she'd be disgusted with him if she knew what he was doing. Not to mention he isn't even sure she's still alive.]

[she smiles back happily, eyes wide and earnest and full of affection. she still has her arms around him, but it's more of a loose hold than a hug now]

I know you don't understand. I wish you did. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. But [she leans her head against his chest] I'm your friend. And I always will be.

[and what has he been doing here? taking care of baby vampire deer, building a range so that others can keep their skills sharp, going on dangerous expeditions to find out the truth about the tentacle creatures. all worthy things to do]

Maybe I will eventually. I don't know it's .... It's hard for me to see myself as anything but a monster really.

Though I guess I haven't done anything like that here have I?

[Huh. He never thought about that before. He honestly can't remember doing anything horrible the whole time he'd been here. That's interesting. Well, as interesting as it can be when his level of enthusiasm is somewhere around the excitement level of watching paint dry.]

[looks straight into his eyes, hers brimming with sincerity] You're not a monster.

No, you absolutely haven't. Not even that time when the stupid aliens were trying to make us kill each other.

[she can tell that something's a bit off, but she hopes that he takes her words to heart afterwards. she doesn't think that he gives himself anywhere near as much credit as he deserves]

I spent that whole time running away and would have died if Carlisle hadn't saved me. It wasn't pleasant.

[He blinks, trying to recall how he'd actually felt. For some reason he really can't, and yet it doesn't seem to bother him at all.]

So far I've only liked the one where our furniture came to life. That was kind of neat.

So, what? Do you think that running away makes you a coward? There are people here with powers [she shakes her head] beyond belief. You're human, a normal human, there's no way you can compete with that.

[she'd mostly worried about trying to keep others out of danger although her own instincts were telling her to flee]

It was, wasn't it? It was cute and harmless--well, as harmless as this place gets.

It does make me a coward. If I was stronger I wouldn't have to run.

[Huh, normally this is where Jacob's voice would chime in about needing to be culled. But it's not. Well that's nice.]

Yeah. I heard I missed an event where everything was turned into candy. I think I would have liked that. I miss candy.

People here have powers beyond those of a normal human. There's nothing wrong with being a normal human and knowing when to pick your battles.

[she sounds completely sincere and warm.

and she giggles] Yeah, that sounds like a lot more fun than what we usually have to put up with.

But if I wasn't a normal human I wouldn't have to run away from things.

[Not that there's a lot he can do about that. ]

There was also one with a beach resort. We missed all the good shit.

Event Log: All Or Nothing

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