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hadriel_logs2019-04-27 10:40 pm
volitaunt) wrote in hadriel_logs2019-04-27 10:40 pm
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[closed] And we want everything to end, just like Nostradamus said
Who: Poe Dameron and Nathan Drake
What: Two nerdy boys exploring the jungle, also angst and bonding.
Where: The jungle around Hadriel
When: Backdated to after the new arrivals
Warnings: None at the moment. Angst, possible thoughts of torture and mental violation.
[ He thought about just sending Nate a message, canceling their plans, taking--ha ha--a rain check on their jungle adventures. Keep things light and at a distance and just not expose himself to other people until he was more sure of himself, more sure of his emotional self-control. (Like he's ever had much of that.)
He didn't cancel, though. He didn't cancel, even after the first night of sleeping with John's familiar breathing in the dark. He pulled out his phone at least three times in the dark, selected his way to Nate's inbox, and then put it away.
Because as long as John was in their apartment, Poe wanted excuses to get out.
It's not just about John. Poe's pretty sure of that. There's been something hovering at a dangerous distance for a while now, a shadow that he's been able to ignore, because even more than Riverview, Hadriel is just one damn thing after another.
And it's familiar. It's too familiar. The unstoppable force, the hilariously small numbers standing against it, the people who need protecting and don't have a hope of real safety.
Its dead teenagers looking for another world to go home to, it's friends being attacked and tortured by monsters who seem determined to follow him and Finn from universe to universe, it's being a food source for creatures powerful enough to ruin their lives and too weak to save them.
But whatever held it back evaporated when he saw John Sheppard standing in the rain when he should have been at home.
Whatever held it back disappeared when Poe started to wonder again, again, again, if he and Finn and Rey will ever find their way home. Rey he has more hope for. She's only once removed from where they started. But him and Finn?
He's so deep in his own head he doesn't really notice Nate until he's right on top of him, and he has to stumble back a step to avoid just... walking into the guy. ]
Sorry! I was, uh. I was thinking.
What: Two nerdy boys exploring the jungle, also angst and bonding.
Where: The jungle around Hadriel
When: Backdated to after the new arrivals
Warnings: None at the moment. Angst, possible thoughts of torture and mental violation.
[ He thought about just sending Nate a message, canceling their plans, taking--ha ha--a rain check on their jungle adventures. Keep things light and at a distance and just not expose himself to other people until he was more sure of himself, more sure of his emotional self-control. (Like he's ever had much of that.)
He didn't cancel, though. He didn't cancel, even after the first night of sleeping with John's familiar breathing in the dark. He pulled out his phone at least three times in the dark, selected his way to Nate's inbox, and then put it away.
Because as long as John was in their apartment, Poe wanted excuses to get out.
It's not just about John. Poe's pretty sure of that. There's been something hovering at a dangerous distance for a while now, a shadow that he's been able to ignore, because even more than Riverview, Hadriel is just one damn thing after another.
And it's familiar. It's too familiar. The unstoppable force, the hilariously small numbers standing against it, the people who need protecting and don't have a hope of real safety.
Its dead teenagers looking for another world to go home to, it's friends being attacked and tortured by monsters who seem determined to follow him and Finn from universe to universe, it's being a food source for creatures powerful enough to ruin their lives and too weak to save them.
But whatever held it back evaporated when he saw John Sheppard standing in the rain when he should have been at home.
Whatever held it back disappeared when Poe started to wonder again, again, again, if he and Finn and Rey will ever find their way home. Rey he has more hope for. She's only once removed from where they started. But him and Finn?
He's so deep in his own head he doesn't really notice Nate until he's right on top of him, and he has to stumble back a step to avoid just... walking into the guy. ]
Sorry! I was, uh. I was thinking.