Maybe. Maybe it was selfish for Adam to want to keep it from him. But there's more to it, there's things he hasn't told anyone, and he struggles for a moment to find some way to explain, to justify. There isn't really one, not unless he's honest, and he's not sure he's ready for that.

But then, Gansey has already turned away from him. If Adam were somebody else, maybe he'd stop at that, willing to keep all his secrets in order to keep Ronan from turning away too. But he's not, he's Adam Parrish, and if everything is going to come crashing down, he'd rather it happen because he chooses it. So maybe it's time to be honest, before anything goes too far.

"I didn't want him to know. He shouldn't have known, I should have been able to prevent it and none of that would have mattered." He takes a breath, looks at Ronan. "It's going to be my fault. I saw it. That's why I can stop it."