[It's only when he feels Ronan's lips against his jaw that he realizes things could have been different. Ronan might not have remembered things, might have lived something else, might not have known about them. It seems impossible, in a way, because they've found each other twice already, and what's the difference between their two first kisses, between Adam's fingers tracing Ronan's tattoo on his couch at the Barns or on his bed here?
But he knows, suddenly, that it's entirely possible that he could have returned to a Ronan who didn't feel free to kiss him. And they've talked about it, about what would happen then, but the reality would have been much more difficult.
He grips the fabric of Ronan's shirt, holding on to him tightly for a moment longer. After everything, Adam can't imagine losing this. He almost did, at home.]
I don't know either. I just got back, too.
[And he doesn't know if the others might be around somewhere, might come walking in. God. Gansey might be here. Adam almost lost Ronan, but they did lose Gansey, and the thought of a second chance - it's not impossible.
He can't quite kiss Ronan properly at this angle, but he turns his head, nose pressing into his cheek, and kisses his cheekbone, his jaw. Whatever he can reach, before he pulls away again.]
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But he knows, suddenly, that it's entirely possible that he could have returned to a Ronan who didn't feel free to kiss him. And they've talked about it, about what would happen then, but the reality would have been much more difficult.
He grips the fabric of Ronan's shirt, holding on to him tightly for a moment longer. After everything, Adam can't imagine losing this. He almost did, at home.]
I don't know either. I just got back, too.
[And he doesn't know if the others might be around somewhere, might come walking in. God. Gansey might be here. Adam almost lost Ronan, but they did lose Gansey, and the thought of a second chance - it's not impossible.
He can't quite kiss Ronan properly at this angle, but he turns his head, nose pressing into his cheek, and kisses his cheekbone, his jaw. Whatever he can reach, before he pulls away again.]
What do you remember?