[His words are sharp. He is hurting, he is in pain, but what good will it do to fall apart? And in front of Ronan, who would only be disgusted by it, who would only be disturbed and made uncomfortable by the tears Adam wants to shed? Adam has never known what Ronan sees in him, but it's not that kind of weakness, he's sure of that. It's not the part of himself that's a fraction away from shattering. No one could look at that and find it attractive, no one could look at that and find it anything but pathetic.
Ronan's words cut deep, and Adam is not one to crumple beneath that pain. It's true, he knows. He swore he was going to save Gansey, and Ronan believed him. And maybe this isn't quite that - they don't know if Gansey is dead or if he's alive and home safe, maybe with another Adam who will do better, who will be what he needs to be.
But even if it's true, it isn't fair. This isn't Adam's fault, and Adam didn't say anything like that, Ronan is just making it what he needs it to be to start a fight.
Fine. If he wants a fight, he'll get one.]
You think you're doing any good, stomping around and breaking things and yelling at people? You think this is going to get Gansey back or keep him safe? Fuck you, Lynch. You're no better than me.
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[His words are sharp. He is hurting, he is in pain, but what good will it do to fall apart? And in front of Ronan, who would only be disgusted by it, who would only be disturbed and made uncomfortable by the tears Adam wants to shed? Adam has never known what Ronan sees in him, but it's not that kind of weakness, he's sure of that. It's not the part of himself that's a fraction away from shattering. No one could look at that and find it attractive, no one could look at that and find it anything but pathetic.
Ronan's words cut deep, and Adam is not one to crumple beneath that pain. It's true, he knows. He swore he was going to save Gansey, and Ronan believed him. And maybe this isn't quite that - they don't know if Gansey is dead or if he's alive and home safe, maybe with another Adam who will do better, who will be what he needs to be.
But even if it's true, it isn't fair. This isn't Adam's fault, and Adam didn't say anything like that, Ronan is just making it what he needs it to be to start a fight.
Fine. If he wants a fight, he'll get one.]
You think you're doing any good, stomping around and breaking things and yelling at people? You think this is going to get Gansey back or keep him safe? Fuck you, Lynch. You're no better than me.