Glacius (
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hadriel_logs2017-02-07 10:53 pm
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Find Someone to Carry You.
Who: Glacius (
glacius), Carlisle (
tongueamok), Emily (
unfollowing), and Kate (
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What: After his double ruined two of his gills with a dirty, thorny vine, infection begins to set in the Glacius' respiratory tract. His friends do whatever it takes to make sure he can bounce back from it, doing everything from general check-ups to combining efforts to providing him with some much-needed Healing Ice.
Where: Outside Glacius and Carlisle's apartment, the Clinic
When: Backdated to the very beginning of February.
Warnings: Gore, mentions of nasty sickly symptoms.
Not far from Guard HQ - CLOSED to Carlisle and Emily
The Clinic- CLOSED to Kate
What: After his double ruined two of his gills with a dirty, thorny vine, infection begins to set in the Glacius' respiratory tract. His friends do whatever it takes to make sure he can bounce back from it, doing everything from general check-ups to combining efforts to providing him with some much-needed Healing Ice.
Where: Outside Glacius and Carlisle's apartment, the Clinic
When: Backdated to the very beginning of February.
Warnings: Gore, mentions of nasty sickly symptoms.
Not far from Guard HQ - CLOSED to Carlisle and Emily
Stay where you are, and do not die.
The first part of that demand was easily enough accomplished. The respiratory infection that had been festering in his ruined gills and lower airways had been sapping steadily at his strength all week, and now, Glacius wasn't sure if he could get up and walk more than a few steps without pitching over again. It was the second part that was beginning to feel more and more like it was going to be a challenge now, and if the ice alien wasn't feeling so foggy-headed and feverish, he might be more alarmed. In fact, without the voice of his friends over the communicator to tie him to reality, it was very hard not to begin drifting off again. He tries his best to ground himself with breathing exercises, but of course that doesn't work very well when your own respiratory system is slowly and painfully giving out on you... he tries to count the seconds, but he's tired, so tired, and his mind can't keep that up as everything starts to dim again.
In the end the sickly alien decides to try for thoughts that come more naturally, letting his mind drift over fond memories of his homeworld, and with his friends here in this cave. It means that he's skirting the edge of that thick, heavy shroud of unconsciousness more closely now, but at least he's not expending so much precious energy consistently wrestling his mind back into the present. He thinks of Rey, whose calm determination mirrored his own, who helped him stay grounded when things were difficult. He thought of Kate and her undying loyalty, of all the burdens of his that she listened to and empathized with. He thought of Carlisle and Emily--all of the kind words and gestures, all of the unrelenting faith in his character and goodness that they'd had. They--they still thought he was worthy of the sash. Without full lucidity he feels closer to the memories somehow, could swear he can hear their voices--
And then he realizes that he can and he is--they're calling out to him over the sound of heavy, approaching footfalls. The dark shroud that has crept in from the edges of his vision and blotted out the world begins to thin, now, and Glacius struggles to lift his head from the ground, wheezing stubbornly as he tries to catch his breath. He can't call back to them, in fact his trembling limbs look like they can barely keep his upper body off the ground, but he's trying his best to let them know that he's here, and whatever it is they have planned for him should probably be done fast.
The Clinic- CLOSED to Kate
Carlisle and Emily's efforts had worked flawlessly, their last-ditch efforts to provide Glacius with Healing Ice having restored the ice alien to perfect health... but that was exactly it. That was the last chance that they had of warding off the respiratory infection that had nearly claimed him, and Glacius knew that he could not always rely on such things--not only because snow in this place was of the highest rarity and he wouldn't trust the gods to cough up more whenever he needed it, but because he didn't want his friends expending so much of themselves. He needed to be more careful.
He needed to establish better preventative measures to hopefully himself from ever coming that close again in the first place.
He knows that Kate is up as early as early can be--her patterns mimic his own, in that way-- and a least they seem to be in the "quiet aftermath" period that tends to follow after the wretched games of the gods. It's not likely the clinic will be busy today, especially not at an hour that most humans would consider "ungodly", so he should be able to keep this visit solely between the two of them. And so as the artificial lighting is just beginning to illuminate the dreary subterranean city, giving the impression of a warm and peaceful morning, she'll find she has a certain otherworldly visitor at the clinic door, trying to find some space in her schedule before the other inhabitants of the city stop by and happen to catch a glimpse of him.
Except this time he's not here just as a visitor, or as a guard making sure everything is in order--no, he's here as a patient.

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That is indeed Carlisle's voice Glacius hears as the clergyman tears across the street to kneel by his side, his eyes and voice fraught with worry, his hands shaking as he holds them above his alien friend, afraid that any amount of contact will make things worse. Despite that the run over took the wind out of him, he takes off at a mile a minute, trying to piece together some semblance of a plan.
"You're- you're going to be fine. I can't- can't heal you, or maybe I could, but I'll make things worse if I risk it. Gills are too delicate, and with the burning that comes from my aural channels, probably a bad idea, given the way you're breathing and the coughing and you should have had that checked out. Right. Forget I mentioned it. Something else, then. We'll, ah. We'll get you off the ground and you'll be fine once we figure out what it is that we'll do when we do what do we do what do we do what do we do?!"
That last question is aimed squarely at Emily, who Carlisle turns to, his expression reflecting the desperation in his tone.
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It's much the same now. Yes, the state of Glacius's voice had shocked her and started the adrenaline pumping. She'd kept pace with Carlisle until he'd broken ahead and run to Glacius's side in a gesture that reminds her of how she acted when she saw Matt walk around the city, injured and lost, on the day he'd arrived. It sends a stab of sadness through her chest, but she marshals herself together. Now's not the time to miss Matt. Now's the time to get Glacius home and healed up.
This is a lot to take in, but she can do this. Glacius is sick, and Carlisle is distraught. She's the one who has to get them all together.
With a deep breath, she stands straight, like she's doing a presentation for class or a mock interview for an internship. "We have to get Glacius back to the apartment. To the snow. Glacius, there's real, clean snow outside your apartment door, but we can't carry you there. Can you stand? Can you walk if we support you?"
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As he struggles to move, at least one of the other people that he cares about deeply is managing to keep her head. Emily's voice is a clear note that punches through Carlisle's panicked rambling, helps to snatch up his attention and gives him something to focus on--which he does very intently. "Support," he croaks, coughing brokenly, focusing on getting out of here first and foremost before questioning the other part of what she's said. He doesn't seem sure if he's heard her right; confusion paints his tightly-knit features. "Sss-snow..? How..? Can't be..."
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"Stop talking," he utters to Glacius, his hand tightening for a moment before he tries to slide himself under one of Glacius' shoulders. His body, still stiff itself from magical exhaustion, fights against him, but desperation wins out as he tries to help Glacius rise to his feet.
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She shoots Carlisle a quick glance, and nods. "Let's go. One step at a time, okay?"
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So they'll feel the struggling ice alien shake against them, a powerful tremor moving his whole body, and a seething, bubbling hiss spatters from his gills as he tries to force himself to move. One leg comes up underneath him, pushing him up onto one knee... he groans and then gets the other into position, beginning to rise shakily. Glacius is trying to keep as much weight off of his friends as possible, but but's burning energy that he doesn't honestly have at this point... he stoops heavily and stumbles, but tries to doggedly keep at it.
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They aren't, of course, but they're two steps closer, and Carlisle will take what he can get in terms of determination at the moment.
"You'll be- be so excited to see it, Glacius. The snow. Emily- she did most of the work, but you'll be able to mend yourself from any wound or infection, right? That is what you said, so you've got to make it until then. Don't want the snow to go to waste."
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"We're two stubborn overachievers who want to make sure you're okay. It's a dangerous mix." Though really, for all that she'd been upset by the sight of Glacius looking so hurt, Carlisle reacted far worse. It doesn't seem like how a clergyman would react, especially not one who can heal others.
They're lucky, her two friends, that she's more worried with keeping them moving forwards than thinkong more about her suspicions regarding the two of them.
"Come on, we're closer now." It's not a lie, okay. "You're doing really well, Glacius."
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Unfortunately, all of this exertion means that the alien is breathing very heavily, which is aggravating his airways and ruined gills. Glacius feels one heavy pant suddenly catch in his throat, and then before he can suppress it he's coughing horribly, hard enough to dislodge something deeper down. His eyes widen and his body tenses, and amidst each horrible hacking sound he tries to force out words: "--L-look away or--put me d-down or..."
Though neither of them are likely to stop supporting him in the midst of a respiratory attack--and the alien realizes this belatedly even as he starts to feel something coming up-- there's cause for his sudden trepidation. After a few more agonized coughs there's a very wet spattering sound as a bloody film is ejected from his injured gills, enough to spray across his friend's clothes given how close they are--which he's clearly horrified to note after the fit passes.
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Apparently not, as he immediately freezes, his mind thrown back to an instant where Glacius was impaled before him by his double, a single thought resonating in him: this is his fault.
And that thought quickly transforms into a runaway train of them: Glacius is dying and it's his fault again. He should have insisted Glacius get that cough checked out or find a way to manage his injured gills; he should have healed him despite any discomfort on Glacius' end, because if he'd been healed, then he wouldn't be suffering now, so why didn't he just heal him the moment he had even a scrap of energy to spare on such an endeavor did he not care about his friend no wait they're partners now and that makes it even worse because he finally had some kind of an exciting and new connection to explore with another being who knows exactly what he is and isn't afraid of him or disgusted or thinks he's some kind of a blight on the world and now said being is going to die and he'll be alone and that is a dreadful feeling in the highest—
Carlisle forces himself to stop in the only way he knows how; Emily and Glacius may feel his influence upon them, urging them along in spite of any reason they may find to hesitate: "Keep moving!"
As for Carlisle himself, he does, putting one foot in front of the other once more.
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But Carlisle's influence soothes her, keeps her focused, helps her pull her strength together to move as fast as Glacius will allow.
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The ice alien growls, blood bubbling frothily out of his gills, and moves with more intention this time-- his feet plant themselves more solidly against the ground and a little bit more of his weight leaves their shoulders. There will be a price to pay for pushing himself like this when he has nothing left, but the Healing Ice awaiting him--if his friends can manage to help him utilize it effectively, and he has no reason to doubt them--should help to negate that.
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But there's no taking it back now. He utters a quiet series of apologies as they keep going, the Spire appearing in the distance.
quietly moves us along
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i am so sorry for her omg
Em dishes out the tough stuff Carlisle needs to hear. She is a gift.
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People might get past those walls, into her heart, but letting the things it feels out? That's something Kate hasn't managed yet, preferring to deal with it by drinking. And drinking some more.
But, for nothing but fortune's sake, perhaps, she's not hungover this morning, up before sunrise, though more tired than usual. The drinking habits, the need to be plied unconscious by alcohol, they're as much to do with the nightmares of what happened, the coldness that seeped through her double and then herself, after Faith's death; hell, Faith's death itself, the sight of her supposedly near-invincible friend lying, lifeless, just hammering home the thing that stabs her heart so often:
Everyone you love will leave you. You won't be able to protect them, you never have been.
She's at the clinic at this time because she's been falling asleep there more often than not, whether due to too much alcohol, or simply because it's easier to sleep there than in the increasingly empty, oversized house that she and Faith share. So, when Glacius approaches, she's stifling a yawn and trying to twist all her hair into a bun on the top of her head.
"Gl-" Fuck, nah, that yawn's happening, bro. "Glacius? Can I help?"
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Glacius frowns. No matter how hard he tries to look out for everyone, there's just no way one being can feasibly keep up with it all every time something in this cave goes wrong--or is orchestrated against them. He'd come to the clinic attempting to get some help, but now he's thinking he should shelf that for the time being in order to catch up with one of his closest friends. She deserves better than the hardship she has clearly endured.
"Yes, actually--but first.... are you alright?" The ice alien asks as he steps inside, casting a look around the clinic. Save for the two of them, it's empty--for the time being. Good. "I mean... no, wrong question, as I can already tell the answer to that one. Is there anything that I can do for you? Recent events have kept us apart, and... it does not become me to be kept apart from one of my most loyal allies and friends. I would like to make up for that lapse now, if I can."
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She doesn't deserve to feel bad about their existence. Unlike Kate, she didn't fall into that trap, where those terrible parts of her are one weight too many away from coming out without remorse or care.
Finishing up with her hair - it's not as perfect as usual, but it'll do for now - Kate stretches her arms above her head. The clothes she's in are clearly crumpled, more than enough of a sign that she's just passed out here and woken up.
"I'm-" She catches herself, because fine is a lie. It's a lie she doesn't want to tell any more, even if she'd rather do her job than talk too much, after the combination of too much alcohol and chats with Carlisle, going through everything again will be awkward and painful. "Fell asleep in th' office. Not the best idea." Which is true, you can't really get a proper night's sleep on a chair and slumped over a desk.
"What can I do for you?"
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In any case, her question brings the other reason for his visit to the front of his mind, and the alien fights down a wave of uncertainty. Technically, this goes against some of his people's cultural tenets... but the alternative is waiting for a repeat of his respiratory infection or something even worse, and he can't afford to be getting badly sick in a place where so many other horrible things are waiting to be dropped on their heads at literally any moment. Glacius' gills flutter, and he forces himself to have out with it.
"I fell gravely ill recently," the ice alien starts, moving further into the clinic towards one of the examination tables. "My friends were able to pull me back from its clutches by arranging Healing Ice for me, but... I put them through such worry and grief, and they had to involve Hope in order to get the amount of snow necessary for the process. I... I am not supposed to let anyone study me, pass on any information about my species' unique biology, but I do not want to have to rely on the gods in such a manner again, and I cannot afford to take such risks with my health in such a dangerous city..."
He trails off, then looks to Kate plaintively. Despite bringing himself here for this particular purpose, he's not able to make the request outright... but she should know what she's getting at, and moreover, what an unprecedented display of trust it is, given how closely Glacius guards his people's secrets.
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The one that says that he trusts her to heal as much as destroy, even though there's no more secrets in that area and she's not hiding the fear that's controlled so much of her life. This means something more, something uplifting that's needed in the wake of everything which has been designed to create doubt, to hang it heavy over her head.
"We can talk about it later," she finally says, speaking of her own worries, finding supplies and paper and pen for any notes she needs to take. "Don't- Don't want it getting in th' way of work." Because her own problems aren't something that can be solved as easily as a check-up can be done.
"So, tell me about your biology." And it's back to business for now as she puts on a stethoscope, hovering it lightly over his chest, not pressing it onto the flesh just yet. It's strange, after all this time it's nearly foreign, to be working on something as mundane as a check-up, even one that's to do with actual biology rather than powers.
It feels like a breather, almost, a breath of fresh air between the chaos of events and the injuries that rain down from them.
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Those caveats being laid out, the ice alien eyes the stethoscope. He's almost not sure what it's for, it's so primitive compared to the technology that his people use... but given that she's hovering the circular resonator near his chest, he can only assume she's trying to listen to his hearbeat. Glacius obliges, allowing the thick layer of ice that encases him to retract; the alien's more traditional organic (and vulnerable) underbody is revealed, his muscles and tendons standing out against taught, pale skin. Having that protective layer stripped even locally hurts, exposing him to the air that's too warm for his species, but he can put up with it for the time being.
"Well," he begins, his gills fluttering again--Kate can probably tell by now that it's a nervous tic, much like a human wetting their lips, "The first thing you'll probably notice with that device of yours is that I have a binary vascular system. Two hearts. It pumps our blood rapidly and a lot of force, which helps prevent too much freezing build-up in veins or arteries, and provides plenty of oxygen to our bodies even during great physical exertion. It's part of the reason we're so naturally hardy... though, the second heart is not an entirely redundant organ. We can technically exist with only one, though it puts a lot of stress on the remaining organ to the point that life expectancy is shortened, and other complications can arise..."
He stops there for now, going quiet so that Kate can listen to the vigorous staccato rhythm.
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"Got it." It's unlikely she'd have done so anyway, but the request just hammers home that this is something to be left to herself, to be protected. Kept safe. And yes, the tools are likely nothing compared to what his people have, but that's what Hadriel provides. It's all she knows to use, even back home, although there are certainly superhumans who could do all of this without aids, she's not among those gifted few. Her powers don't allow such things, only responding to people's abilities, to that which is beyond the kind of biology that's required here.
So instead of something quick, this will be longer, more questions than immediate answers. Kate listens for a moment, slips the stethoscope over one shoulder with a nod and begins scribbling on paper - notes of what he's said about his hearts, notes of what she heard rattling in his chest, wondering all the while if dual hearts is something her kind were meant to have but never did. "And your lungs?" Her eyes flick to his gills for a moment, twirling the pen between her fingers idly as she does.
oh yea major headcanon alert in all of this lol
So he allows the examination to continue, answering her questions when she asks them. "Ah yes, lungs. I do possess them--but they are simpler in structure than your human lungs. Though they can aid in respiration, they are meant mostly to store and provide air to my various vocal chords, allowing me to speak and produce the more unique sounds of my people's language. It is my gills that are mostly responsible for oxygenating my blood, but that can only happen if the organs are moist--that is why our operculum are kept in a gelatinous state even though it creates a point of vulnerability in our bodies."
Glacius hesitates again, then forces down another wave of misgivings and actually tilts his head up, flaring all of his gills open at once, revealing the alien respiratory organs housed with in--they are a deep indigo sort of hue, comprised of countless tiny filaments. This is an unprecedented gesture, and Kate can probably tell--not only because he's openly exposing what he just said is the most vulnerable point of his anatomy to her, but because he's putting it up for open examination. That says a whole lot about how much he trusts her--not to hurt him, or the rest of his species with this chance.
kanyeshrug. KI will just have to provide deets if they don't want headcanon.
Kate never thought she'd be part-running a clinic with so little in the way of actual technology or real organisation (where everyone's, more or less, on a casual schedule, can you really have organisation the way it was taught to her?), nor that she'd be using the little she knows about check-ups, as opposed to emergency first aid or power problems, for an alien being. Someone, had the world done something different had they met back home when The Agency was still active, she would have likely treated in the same way that Ultratech did. An abomination. Someone to hurt, rather than help. It's those thoughts that strike her when she gently prods at the exposed flesh, applies pressure with a methodical precision that's easier to get right after being taught what's enough to cause pain.
"Operculum?" Her eyes are bright, and it takes little more than a second for her to shake her head at the question she makes - once he flares his gills, she thinks she gets it. What that word means. It's nothing in the human or superhuman biology, and she knows little about anything beyond that. With little more fuss, she begins noting things down, scribbling in spiky handwriting. "That means the infection was in your gills, aye?" That is, after all, the main reason he came here. She thinks she's getting the right answer, but...
Well. This is all new. Another change.
I guess so!!
He shudders a little as he remembers how miserable he had felt as his condition worsened... and even harder was the knowledge that he was powerless to fight it off, as he might have been able to with an outside force. Coming to Kate at least helps him feel like he's taking action against it in some way, and there's more they can do in that regard beyond just taking down vitals.
"While true treatment options are limited without access to Healing Ice or any of my people's medicine... we should still discuss ways to attempt to slow or fight such infections, yes?"
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"Aye," she agrees. It's been a non-issue so far, but clearly this is more than enough of a sign that Kate's been taking that for granted. Like the rest of this place, their health is unpredictable, and clearly certain things can still infect people. And in a locked down area such as this...
It'll be a pain if it spreads. "Know a few remedies from back home that help with things like this. Prob'ly find some substitutes in th' orchard." She steps back, pulls a chair over to sit down opposite him, tapping her pen against the notebook. "There any natural remedies your people use?" Most of the ones she does know are teas, various heat-based or steam-based aids that Kate doesn't know whether to recommend readily with his biology.
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So he continues providing it. "Plenty," Glacius replies, pushing air through his nostrils in a brief snort, "The problem is that they are not available to me here. The most powerful remedy is a phenomenon known as Healing Ice--it is abundtantly available on the homeworld, of course, but I have seen not a single flake of snow that has fallen naturally in this cave. For Healing Ice to be effective, the snow must be freshly-fallen and completely undisturbed... and there must be enough of it to completely envelop my entire body. If this conditions are met, Healing Ice can mend any injury and expel any sickness."
It was how he managed to recover from his near-death experience; thank the Makers Emily had enough concern and foresight to immediately reach out to the gods when he first informed her of his injury. Had the snow not been provided for him so quickly--and had she and Carlisle not supplemented it with their own magically-generated snow-- things might not have turned out so well.
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