Maketh Tua (
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hadriel_logs2017-06-01 10:32 pm
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The dead know better
Who: Lance Sweets and Maketh Tua
What: Chance encounters. Uneasy conversations.
Where: Outside the Guard post.
When: Forward-dated to June 3rd.
Warnings: Langue, mental health talk.
The sword has been hiding in the back of her closet since the incident with the doubles - perfectly cleaned and sharpened, of course - but out of sight, out of mind. A childish avoidance. Sometimes Maketh has dreams about finding it stuck through her chest again, the double laughing at her, that perfect empty pain. And then she wakes up and puts them away, because a dream is only a dream and means nothing if you are strong.
But the sword is a weapon and weapons must be used. There's no point in hiding this one away, not when it's perfectly serviceable.
Her skills are rusty anyway. And, far more importantly, her conduct has been found wanting.
That cannot stand.
So she takes the blade and goes outside the Guard post after her shift, and makes herself go through every sword drill she ever memorized. Over and over again until she no longer hesitates, until the tension is gone and only the motion remains. The blade is sharp and she must be as well. A clean, simple weapon.
Execute your purpose, soldier.
Time passes. She's stripped down to her undershirt and sweating hard, hair beginning to slip from her bun. But she's no longer afraid. If there are further nightmares, then she will conquer them.
Tomorrow, she'll wear the sword at her belt again.
It feels like an accomplishment of sorts and Maketh allows herself a brief moment of satisfaction. This, at least, she can do properly.
She snaps to attention when she hears someone approaching, moving into a ready stance. "Identify yourself!"
What: Chance encounters. Uneasy conversations.
Where: Outside the Guard post.
When: Forward-dated to June 3rd.
Warnings: Langue, mental health talk.
The sword has been hiding in the back of her closet since the incident with the doubles - perfectly cleaned and sharpened, of course - but out of sight, out of mind. A childish avoidance. Sometimes Maketh has dreams about finding it stuck through her chest again, the double laughing at her, that perfect empty pain. And then she wakes up and puts them away, because a dream is only a dream and means nothing if you are strong.
But the sword is a weapon and weapons must be used. There's no point in hiding this one away, not when it's perfectly serviceable.
Her skills are rusty anyway. And, far more importantly, her conduct has been found wanting.
That cannot stand.
So she takes the blade and goes outside the Guard post after her shift, and makes herself go through every sword drill she ever memorized. Over and over again until she no longer hesitates, until the tension is gone and only the motion remains. The blade is sharp and she must be as well. A clean, simple weapon.
Execute your purpose, soldier.
Time passes. She's stripped down to her undershirt and sweating hard, hair beginning to slip from her bun. But she's no longer afraid. If there are further nightmares, then she will conquer them.
Tomorrow, she'll wear the sword at her belt again.
It feels like an accomplishment of sorts and Maketh allows herself a brief moment of satisfaction. This, at least, she can do properly.
She snaps to attention when she hears someone approaching, moving into a ready stance. "Identify yourself!"
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Especially when wielded by a skilled hand. Maketh knows her own talents are acceptable at best. Henry is a true sword master.
She pauses.
"You should not wander around unarmed. It is not wise."
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The gun that he's indeed not carrying, and feels a flash of irritation at Maketh's comment regarding. He really wants to say that, so far, only she and Hux have been any sort of threat to him and if they could cease, he wouldn't have any immediate need to defend himself, but that's needlessly combative. Instead, he has a better response. "How often do you find you actually have need to use a weapon in daily life here?"
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He also considers ignoring her last question again, but decides to half-answer instead. "I don't have any interest in hearing your judgements on how weak or illogical my world is." So save the questions, if that's the aim.
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She hates relying on these phones, but it's the only technology they have. Adapt, soldier.
The last part gives her pause. Maketh stares at him for a long moment. His word doesn't--? Impossible. Yet--
Well.
She grimaces. Looks away.
"I would have liked to have seen such a world. Regardless, that is not the case here. Get one of the Guardsmen to train you. Henry is the best. But if you wish to use a blade, Ikaruga's style would be better suited to you. It requires less brute strength."
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Lance feels a flash of sympathy for her when she says she wishes she could've seen a world like that, but it's gone pretty quickly at her next comments. He doesn't respond with anger or annoyance, but isn't fake-agreeable either. "Maketh, what is the goal you're trying to achieve here? I find it difficult to believe you're speaking out of concern."
He doesn't believe for a moment she cares they much about his safety, and also doesn't feel the need to inform her that he's actually entirely capable of using a weapon. He'll keep the extent of his skill in shooting to himself for now; if she thinks he occasionally carries the gun but isn't particularly practiced with it, then all the better.
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It's said quite bluntly. She meets his eyes briefly. "You gun has a limited supply of ammunition. A blade is the more practical choice in this situation and you do not move like someone who has the proper training in that area."
The logic is impersonal. It's better that way, Maketh thinks. She holds herself very still, waiting for the verdict.
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There are several things he wants to say in response to her first comment, but refrains. They won't help, and he doesn't like how this conversation is turned toward him, so he focuses on the latter part of what she said. "If I feel the need to learn an additional method of self-defense, I'll do so."
He's already spoken with Ikaruga, after all, although he doesn't care for Maketh to know that. And, in an attempt to regain control of the conversation, "The armoury doesn't have anything for modern weapons, right? Which is why ammunition is an issue?"
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He's no expert in the subject, but he did read a whole lot of information on how Broadsky made his own custom bullets while investigating that case. Making the moulds might be a little difficult, depending, but they already have bullets to work with; the gunpowder would be another issue, but again there are multiple methods and individual parts might be easier to trade for than completed bullets. Besides, if Maketh's been making bombs or other explosives like she's said she trades with people, then that issue might already be taken care of depending on the type of bomb it is.
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Maketh clears her throat. She assumed--
Well, clearly she assumed incorrectly.
"You know a way of manufacturing gunpowder. I see. Will you explain this to my Guardsmen?"
Not to her. Maketh knows her place.
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"I'm not a chemist. I know how it's done, but not exact details about proportions." Sure, he knows enough that he could probably get it, but he's not exactly interested in experimenting with explosives.
Lance is also not sure about agreeing to explain to the Guard members, but he likes the one he knows well enough so far so perhaps it'd be okay.
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The Guard is properly motivated. Hux, surely, can determine the correct formula. Maketh holds herself very still. If Sweets knows information that useful, then she needs to determine a way to convince him to share it. Threats won't work. He's proven that already. Threats will likely make things worse.
"You will do this?" She's careful not to look at him this time, but rather the place behind his shoulder. Exactly as protocol dictates. "Nick would understand it. Or Henry could take notes."
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...And she's staring past him, not making eye contact, which makes him suspicious. "I could potentially talk to Nick." He likes Nick, at least from the conversation they'd had and what he's seen of him on the network. But that said, he's really starting to think this might not be a good idea.
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"I presume these additional resources would only be used for the Guard?" He asks it neutrally, trying not to give away in his voice which answer he's looking for in response.
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But then again, preventing violence by offering more access to weapons doesn't exactly make sense. He'll have to weigh the options later, not on the spot. "I'll think about speaking with Nick." That's all he'll promise for now.
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Maketh pauses. Perhaps she shouldn't say anything. "You are -- reluctant? Why?"
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He has yet to see or encounter a single monster, although he doesn't doubt they're a threat; so far the only dangers here have been from other people, and arming them even further seems like a really risky choice.
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All of this she says while looking straight ahead, back perfectly straight. Her sword hand hasn't wavered once. .
"Therefore you do not want us to have ammunition. Therefore you do not want the Guard to protect the city."
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cw for self-harm
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