Event Log: Dreamwalker the Second

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Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the Dreamwalker part 2 event
Where: In your dreams
When: October 14th-20th (the second log will go up on Oct 23rd, please keep the two weeks of the event separate!)
Warnings: All different kinds of dreams falling under the umbrella of Delight, Rage, Sorrow, and Hope.

This time, the weird stuff doesn't happen when you're awake- as a matter of fact, your waking hours are the normal ones. That's because you're forced to sleep by some unknown entity, getting more and more exhausted by the moment as night falls. Better make sure you're always around a soft pillow.

Once asleep, it doesn't get any less weird- your dreams will be influenced by one of the four gods that make up the first week. Something to make you smile, something to make you angry- or something that reminds you of your deepest regret or most vulnerable hope, they're all things that you're dreaming about now for some reason, no matter how hard you may try to pull away from them.

To make matters more complicated, there are others intruding on your dreams who definitely don't belong there, and while they may seem like manifestations at first, it becomes clear that these others are actually the consciousness of other members of Hadriel, getting some top quality exposure to your angriest, happiest, most sorrowful moments. Hope it doesn't get awkward when you see them tomorrow...

► This log covers October 14th-20th.
► Feel free to make your own logs as well
► Please tag headers of threads with content warnings where they apply
► Please put your character's name and open/closed in the subject line of your starters!
► If you die in dreams you don't die in real life, but if you somehow die in real life anyway, please let us know here.

Comments

[unknowable]

[He doesn't know what she's feeling, not really. His parents never left him, they just never loved him. In the end, he was the one who left. This is a different story - something else, painful in a different way. He doesn't know what she's feeling, but he thinks he can understand some of it.]

He's not all you have left. You have yourself.

[That probably won't be comforting, but it's what he has to offer. For a very long time, all Adam ever had was himself.]

If he doesn't come back, you'll still have that.

[notimpervious]

Yeah.

[And deep down, she knows he's right. That she will have to depend on herself from this moment on, and that she will be her own support system, her own best friend, her own confidante. She will overcome the odds and get into her top choice university and live her dreams.

She will be alone, but perhaps someday, she won't be.]

I'm the smartest in my year. I... I'll be okay.

[She does not believe that yet, but she will. Once the shock of this passes, she will realize that Adam is right.]

You... talk like you know what this feels like.

[unknowable]

You will be.

[He thinks that believing you can make it through something gets you partway to actually doing it. Give up, and there's no point anyway. He can't be sure that she'll be fine, not really, but she's taking the right attitude about a bad situation.]

No... I mean, I don't know what this feels like for you. Not exactly. But I know what it feels like to have no one but yourself.

[The fact of the matter is that for a very long time Adam didn't know what to felt like to have anyone at all. It was the reverse for him, maybe - he grew up without anyone, knowing that his survival and his success was dependent on himself and no one else. It was only after he was nearly an adult already that that began to change, that he found people who would support him, and by then he didn't know what to do with that.]

Nobody left me. I just didn't have anybody.

[notimpervious]

I'm sorry. [She means it.] I don't know if that's better or worse than this.

[Where she feels the ache of losing what she once had, this boy only knows emptiness. That's sad too.]

Do... do you have people now?

[Can she hope to stop being alone one day?]

[unknowable]

Not better or worse. Just different.

[Adam's mother always told him he didn't have it so bad, that it was partially his fault anyway. He internalized that. It's stuck with him even after getting out, even after knowing it was that bad. It's not something he can get rid of so easily.]

I have people now, yeah. There are people who care about me, who will stand by me and help me however they can.

[He is never not thankful for that.]

You will too.

[notimpervious]

[That, and the plans she has for her future, is all she can hope for. That she will find a new group of people who care about her. That they will stay, that they will never leave. She will not let herself hope too hard for it, but it is enough to lift some of the sadness off her shoulders, and for the dream to start to fade.]

Thanks...

[She trails off. She does not know his name. Perhaps it doesn't matter.]

[unknowable]

You don't have to thank me. You'll be all right.

[He thinks that's true - he knows it will be the case, really. He's experienced it himself, after all, and she's intelligent and driven and things will work out for her.

He can feel the dream fading around him. He hopes that he did help, even if only a little.]

[notimpervious]

[He could have left her here, just like her family did-- but she does not get to tell him that. All she does is shoot him a small, sad smile before the dream fades away entirely, the sorrowful kitchen swallowed up by the hope Adam gave her.]