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ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴅᴛᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ʜᴀᴅʀɪᴇʟ ([personal profile] hadrielmods) wrote in [community profile] hadriel_logs2017-10-14 09:52 am

Event Log: Dreamwalker the Second

Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the Dreamwalker part 2 event
Where: In your dreams
When: October 14th-20th (the second log will go up on Oct 23rd, please keep the two weeks of the event separate!)
Warnings: All different kinds of dreams falling under the umbrella of Delight, Rage, Sorrow, and Hope.


This time, the weird stuff doesn't happen when you're awake- as a matter of fact, your waking hours are the normal ones. That's because you're forced to sleep by some unknown entity, getting more and more exhausted by the moment as night falls. Better make sure you're always around a soft pillow.

Once asleep, it doesn't get any less weird- your dreams will be influenced by one of the four gods that make up the first week. Something to make you smile, something to make you angry- or something that reminds you of your deepest regret or most vulnerable hope, they're all things that you're dreaming about now for some reason, no matter how hard you may try to pull away from them.

To make matters more complicated, there are others intruding on your dreams who definitely don't belong there, and while they may seem like manifestations at first, it becomes clear that these others are actually the consciousness of other members of Hadriel, getting some top quality exposure to your angriest, happiest, most sorrowful moments. Hope it doesn't get awkward when you see them tomorrow...

► This log covers October 14th-20th.
► Feel free to make your own logs as well
► Please tag headers of threads with content warnings where they apply
► Please put your character's name and open/closed in the subject line of your starters!
► If you die in dreams you don't die in real life, but if you somehow die in real life anyway, please let us know here.
dragonsgrasp: (the skies are merciless)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-11-19 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Kain stares in shock, still unsure how this massive dragon was somehow... lurking inside of him. It's impossible! And yet... here it is... and suddenly it's being whisked away into the light and the stone, gone as quickly as it had appeared. What did that mean? Kain has no time to ask them about this, because he's being immediately threatened with execution.]

[He's almost ready to accept his death, too, but... Atem is questioning him. He feels compelled to at least tell him the truth. Then they can judge him fully.]


I'm a traitor. I backstabbed my closest friends, very nearly murdering my best friend. I kidnapped someone who I cared about deeply. I held... f... feelings... [This is the hardest part of the confession, and yet he wants to confess everything, here and now.] ...for... someone who I shouldn't have. I was cruel and cold and a terrible person, obstructing my friends at every point, stealing from them, working against them, fighting them...

[He bows his head.]

I'm a terrible person. I know.
puzzlingly: (☥ 61.)

[personal profile] puzzlingly 2017-11-29 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
... Why?

It does sound terrible, but at the same time, did he truly deserve to die for all that? He hadn't (apparently) killed anyone yet. Nearly murdering doesn't count if you don't do it. Why did he stop? Did he reconsider?
dragonsgrasp: (would you bring me back down?)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-11-29 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Someone saw the darkness in me and exploited it so that they could control my actions. But that's no excuse. Even with my mind under another's grasp... it was still my hand holding that lance, still me betraying my friends. All that the mind control did was bring forth a side of me that I'd buried deep inside, for a long time.

[Kain will always shoulder the blame for what he'd done, even if there was an outside force at work. He thinks about that dark, terrible dragon he'd just seen... Does that represent all of this darkness inside of him? It... sure feels that way.]
puzzlingly: (☥ 55.)

[personal profile] puzzlingly 2017-11-29 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
They were controlling you...?

That changes things, somehow.

Your guilt is unjustified, Kain. But I understand it.

His father, he had taken all the guilt for someone's else's actions and made it his own, the grief ended up killing him — but Atem realizes didn't find out until later, the timing is a little different, it clashes with what he's doing right now. What is going on? The fabric of the dream itself seems to waver as Atem is slowly becoming aware of it.
dragonsgrasp: (leave it to me)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-12-03 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
[Kain also feels that odd wavering feeling, although it's only slight, just enough to get him to look around curiously, and then dismiss it. He shakes his head.]

But it was still me who was responsible. It was my actions, even if someone else was controlling them. They... they exploited my worst feelings, such as my jealousy and stirred up my inner darkness. So while this force was controlling me, the worst side of me was also at the surface... I did and said many regrettable things. I don't deserve forgiveness for any of it.
puzzlingly: (☥ 11.)

[personal profile] puzzlingly 2017-12-03 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
Everyone's got some darkness inside, Kain, but you blame yourself as if it was your fault. You do not deserve to be executed because of it. But it's about time you start mending all you did before the guilt kills you.

He goes by what he's learned after all this time, not merely focused on the little he knew when he was indeed a King, too young and naive to rule, blinded by a mere idea, utopic and childish. The more he realizes that, the room starts disappearing, only leaving Kain and Atem's throne with the small kind sitting on it.
dragonsgrasp: (would you bring me back down?)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-12-04 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
Are you sure I don't deserve death? Sometimes I've wondered... if perhaps it would be for the better if the world was rid of me.

[Kain isn't so sure he doesn't deserve the ultimate punishment. But Atem seems to have made his judgment, somehow, despite his guilt. Or at least, what Kain sees as his own guilt. He hangs his head as the scene changes around them.]

I've tried to make amends... but this path of redemption is far longer and more difficult than I'd have ever imagined.
puzzlingly: (☥ 101.)

[personal profile] puzzlingly 2017-12-04 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Do not waste the gift that was given to you, Kain.

Then Atem scoffs, and he's the teenager here?

If you'd rather truly die like a coward, please just say so, I'm sure Ammit would love to gloat over devouring your soul. Otherwise, stand proud, dragoon, and face life for what it is.
dragonsgrasp: (calm in the eye of the storm)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-12-05 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
[Kain shakes his head. He wouldn't mind dying, and the Gods' War instilled this feeling in him, but he also isn't about to go out like a coward.]

I'm no coward! I'm simply ready to forfeit my life it that's ultimately how it should be.
puzzlingly: (☥ 61.)

[personal profile] puzzlingly 2017-12-09 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
The small Pharaoh raises an eyebrow.

Do you think you're ready to face yourself, Kain?
dragonsgrasp: (path that men forget)

[personal profile] dragonsgrasp 2017-12-10 06:43 am (UTC)(link)
[He shakes his head.]

I don't think I'll ever be ready. That doesn't mean I'll back down if the time comes, though.