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[pellameno]

Who: Seel and Pell
What: Pell needs a good whack upside the head, hopefully Seel will oblige.
Where: hara house!
When: 10/19, during dreamwalks
Warnings: possible talk of death, torture, sex.

The dreams have Pell on edge.

His sleep has been suffering already -- kind as Jo is to let him stay in her room, she's not Cal, and they don't cuddle. And lately it seems no sooner than he nods off is he in someone else's head. Their dreams. Watching something horrible, more often than not. He remembers the last time this happened, shortly after he'd arrived in Hadriel, and knows it'll run its course, but for the time being... he's tired.

He tries to keep out of the house during the day, not wanting to face the others but not wanting to hide out in Jo's room all the time either. Sometimes he can be found in the living room, studying. Most of the time he's just out. Right now he's in the kitchen, putting away the produce he'd harvested that morning. Moving stiffly and clumsily.

Someone's footsteps approach and he shakes his head to clear the cobwebs a little. Seel. He can sense it, he doesn't have to turn around to know. And he strongly suspects he's in for a lecture.

"Do we have to do this now?" He sounds whiny, and he knows he does, he just doesn't wanna, Seel. Not even a little.

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[pellameno]

"Cal, I never... this poison within you, that you speak of so often. It's never hurt me. I've never feared it." He curls his fingers against the sides of Cal's hand, keeping him close. "I don't know if I believe in souls, but you're right about one thing. Part of me is missing, without you. It's more than just love, I think, though that was frightening enough on its own. This is something deep and tangled inside. I'm only alive when you're with me."

Cal's gaze on him is heavy and stressful but he continues, idle ramblings.

"Maybe the har you know now changed so much just because he'd lost who he was, without you. And didn't know how to deal with that loss. I know I change, without you. But I like myself so much better when we're together. I'm.... brighter. Sharper and stronger and braver but not just because you're there with me. Because you believe in me. Take all that away and I'm sure he was lost, for a long time. I remember being so, so lost, when I wound up here without you. I'm tired of feeling that way now, when you're right here."

He shifts, then, pushing himself up to his knees to straddle Cal's lap, bringing their faces close. The age is there, and Cal's eyes hold more peace than he ever remembers seeing in them, but.

"Show me, Cal. That we're still ourselves."

[immanionorchid]

Cal almost sobbed seeing Pell get that close. After so long doing his damndest to keep away because that's what he thought he'd wanted... He couldn't even describe how it felt. The words didn't exist. The best he could do was say that it was better. He felt whole again.

He couldn't resist any longer, now that Pell was right there and he threw his arms around him and pressed his lips to Pell's, sharing breath with all the love he had. Some of the ache he'd feeling being apart was bound to sneak through but it was fading fast, now that it was over--now that they were together.