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ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴅᴛᴇᴀᴍ ᴏғ ʜᴀᴅʀɪᴇʟ ([personal profile] hadrielmods) wrote in [community profile] hadriel_logs2017-10-14 09:52 am

Event Log: Dreamwalker the Second

Who: All characters participating in the event
What: The event log for the Dreamwalker part 2 event
Where: In your dreams
When: October 14th-20th (the second log will go up on Oct 23rd, please keep the two weeks of the event separate!)
Warnings: All different kinds of dreams falling under the umbrella of Delight, Rage, Sorrow, and Hope.


This time, the weird stuff doesn't happen when you're awake- as a matter of fact, your waking hours are the normal ones. That's because you're forced to sleep by some unknown entity, getting more and more exhausted by the moment as night falls. Better make sure you're always around a soft pillow.

Once asleep, it doesn't get any less weird- your dreams will be influenced by one of the four gods that make up the first week. Something to make you smile, something to make you angry- or something that reminds you of your deepest regret or most vulnerable hope, they're all things that you're dreaming about now for some reason, no matter how hard you may try to pull away from them.

To make matters more complicated, there are others intruding on your dreams who definitely don't belong there, and while they may seem like manifestations at first, it becomes clear that these others are actually the consciousness of other members of Hadriel, getting some top quality exposure to your angriest, happiest, most sorrowful moments. Hope it doesn't get awkward when you see them tomorrow...

► This log covers October 14th-20th.
► Feel free to make your own logs as well
► Please tag headers of threads with content warnings where they apply
► Please put your character's name and open/closed in the subject line of your starters!
► If you die in dreams you don't die in real life, but if you somehow die in real life anyway, please let us know here.
notimpervious: (mother said be rational)

• sorrow | closed (adam, richie, harlan)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-14 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a teenage girl standing in the kitchen as a college-age boy drives off in a car. The colors in the kitchen seem dull, the light so bright it washes out some of the details. With her long, dark hair and grey sweater, the girl stands out. In fact, her sadness is why everything appears the way it does.

For a few seconds after the sound of the car's engine has faded away, it's silent. Then comes the distinct sound of someone who is fighting back tears.

Then, in a shaky voice, the girl says,]
He's coming back, right?

[Because this is a dream, it's clear that he's not. But does the girl know that? Is she asking that in some last-ditch hope to deny the truth? Or does she really believe her brother will come back for her?

Will you help her believe the lie, or will you tell her the truth? Or maybe you'll help this fifteen-year-old avoid a terrible fate.]
Edited 2017-10-15 18:40 (UTC)
unknowable: (as my last chance to feel human)

[personal profile] unknowable 2017-10-15 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't know the story here. How can he? But the sadness is clear enough, and sound of someone driving away. He isn't sure whose dream this is - not immediately - and he isn't sure what to say. Adam is not one for empty words of comfort, but he also doesn't want to hurt her unnecessarily.

He tries to be gentle, at least. He isn't always good at that, either.]


Do you think he will?
notimpervious: (don't say that it can't be done)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-16 01:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[They have that in common, Adam and the girl. She is clumsy with social niceties. They are imprecise. They don't always mean what they express on the surface. But he is trying, and she can appreciate that. Or rather, her adult self can. At fifteen, Brennan is trying to hide her misery beneath anger. Trying, and failing.]

He has to. [She makes her hands into fists. Her gaze is set on where Russ's car used to be.] He's all I have left. If he doesn't, I--

[She falters. It's so much all at once. Their parents disappeared barely more than a week ago.]

He has to.
unknowable: (I like to keep my issues drawn)

[personal profile] unknowable 2017-10-19 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't know what she's feeling, not really. His parents never left him, they just never loved him. In the end, he was the one who left. This is a different story - something else, painful in a different way. He doesn't know what she's feeling, but he thinks he can understand some of it.]

He's not all you have left. You have yourself.

[That probably won't be comforting, but it's what he has to offer. For a very long time, all Adam ever had was himself.]

If he doesn't come back, you'll still have that.
notimpervious: (mild surprise masking great hurt)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-19 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

[And deep down, she knows he's right. That she will have to depend on herself from this moment on, and that she will be her own support system, her own best friend, her own confidante. She will overcome the odds and get into her top choice university and live her dreams.

She will be alone, but perhaps someday, she won't be.]


I'm the smartest in my year. I... I'll be okay.

[She does not believe that yet, but she will. Once the shock of this passes, she will realize that Adam is right.]

You... talk like you know what this feels like.
unknowable: (you say I'm falling behind)

[personal profile] unknowable 2017-10-21 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
You will be.

[He thinks that believing you can make it through something gets you partway to actually doing it. Give up, and there's no point anyway. He can't be sure that she'll be fine, not really, but she's taking the right attitude about a bad situation.]

No... I mean, I don't know what this feels like for you. Not exactly. But I know what it feels like to have no one but yourself.

[The fact of the matter is that for a very long time Adam didn't know what to felt like to have anyone at all. It was the reverse for him, maybe - he grew up without anyone, knowing that his survival and his success was dependent on himself and no one else. It was only after he was nearly an adult already that that began to change, that he found people who would support him, and by then he didn't know what to do with that.]

Nobody left me. I just didn't have anybody.
notimpervious: (my thoughts betrayed)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-21 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry. [She means it.] I don't know if that's better or worse than this.

[Where she feels the ache of losing what she once had, this boy only knows emptiness. That's sad too.]

Do... do you have people now?

[Can she hope to stop being alone one day?]
unknowable: (tell me what you find)

[personal profile] unknowable 2017-10-23 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
Not better or worse. Just different.

[Adam's mother always told him he didn't have it so bad, that it was partially his fault anyway. He internalized that. It's stuck with him even after getting out, even after knowing it was that bad. It's not something he can get rid of so easily.]

I have people now, yeah. There are people who care about me, who will stand by me and help me however they can.

[He is never not thankful for that.]

You will too.
notimpervious: (forgive me the confusion)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-24 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[That, and the plans she has for her future, is all she can hope for. That she will find a new group of people who care about her. That they will stay, that they will never leave. She will not let herself hope too hard for it, but it is enough to lift some of the sadness off her shoulders, and for the dream to start to fade.]

Thanks...

[She trails off. She does not know his name. Perhaps it doesn't matter.]

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[personal profile] trashmouths 2017-10-16 04:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's a girl. He's in a kitchen that isn't his or anyone elses he knows, and for some reason he knows that's not important. What isimportant is the looming quality it has, the sadness, and Richie is reminded strongly of the day Georgie went missing. Not that someone died, he doesn't think, not from a car driving away and the words she says, but someone's left the girl in grey. It's the same morose thought, like something caught in his throat.

He decides to do the same thing he did with Georgie's brother. Sure, it's a girl, but if Beverly Marsh has proved anything it's that girls are just guys with boobs sometimes. He's banking on that as he reaches over and punches her in the arm, doing his best British voice. Doing voices always cheered people up, right? ]


I say, my dear girl, keep your chin up! Stiff lip and all that, wot wot! It's not like you needed him anyway!

[ Is it her parents? Boyfriend? He doesn't know. He's guessing. He's guessing and trying very hard to ignore the fact that a girl might be crying in front of him. He fumbles with his glasses, and tries a grin. ]
Edited 2017-10-16 04:27 (UTC)
notimpervious: (don't you dare)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-16 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's so much like something Russ would do that for a second she's almost comforted-- Then there's a searing ache in her chest, a hot pressure behind her eyes. It's not funny. A stupid accent won't bring Russ back, not if the look he gave her before he got in the car meant what she thinks it does. It won't bring her parents back either.

"It's not like you needed him anyway," says the kid at her side. Really? She needs Russ so much it physically hurts.

The only thing she can do right now is shove Richie in return.]


Of course I need him! I'm fifteen, he's my legal guardian! I can't-- I don't have anyone else to stay with.

[No more family to speak of. No friends, and even if she did, their parents wouldn't want to take on this weird kid who likes to cut open dead animals.]
trashmouths: <user name=hoopskirts> (09)

cw brief mention of abuse

[personal profile] trashmouths 2017-10-17 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Girls got violent? Woah. Sure, girls got violent with each other--he's seen bruises on Beverly that weren't from her dad--but to have a girl shove him startles him so much he just blinks owlishly, the look almost comical with how magnified his eyes are due to his thick glasses. It's only temporary, and he blows a raspberry, bouncing right back. ]

Run away.

[ It's said casually as he looks around. She's crying, or about to, or--being emotional, and he doesn't know how to handle it. He settles for finding the kitchen table and hoisting himself on it, letting his legs swing. ]

Adults never do anything good for us, anyway. They either ignore us or hurt us, so... run away. Now's your chance! It's the perfect opportunity. Stay away from sewers and you'll be fine. Better a missing person's poster than absolutely miserable.
notimpervious: (mother said be rational)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-17 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[Girls can get angry, girls can fight, girls can like gross things and dead animals and science and math and anything else boys can do. Her parents taught her that. They annoyed her sometimes, and they didn't get her, but they made her feel safe. She mattered to them.

But they're gone now, and so is her brother.

She shakes her head.]
I can't run away. I-- I have to go to school, get good grades, go to college...

[Shutting her eyes tight, she sighs.]

My parents never ignored me.

[And the only thing they've done to hurt her is leave just before Christmas.]

I'm not leaving. I have to be rational.

[Just like Mom said.]
Edited (one day i will not make a typo in every tag) 2017-10-17 22:50 (UTC)
trashmouths: <user name=hoopskirts> (07)

[personal profile] trashmouths 2017-10-18 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Rational. Jesus, this girl's like Stan. He wonders if she neatly folds things and has to count pens if they fall like him. He wonders if she has to clean things in a certain way, too, and he's about to flat out ask when he tries to reign himself in.

God, but it's so hard. There's no one to say 'beep beep.' That shuts him off. ]


You always think about school and shit that doesn't matter when your whatever-the-hell ditches you?

[ He's trying. His left foot starts swinging, unable to calm any of his pent up energy. It's a habit he's had since growing up. ]
notimpervious: (don't say that it can't be done)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-19 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[In some ways, she's an average teenager, but she did go through a phase where she staged her death all sorts of different ways.

And honestly, it wouldn't be the rudest thing she has been asked. Things might have been worse if not for Russ. Things do get worse-- but that is in the future, beyond this dream, memories she doesn't have yet but somehow knows are there.]


School is everything. I'm going to be a scientist. An anthropologist. I'm going to be the best at it.

[She will be Dr. Temperance Brennan, known and respected worldwide in her field.]

No one can take that from me. [She whirls to face him, a little bit less defensive in her stance.] ...who ditcched you?

[Someone must have, if he thinks he knows what to say to her.]
trashmouths: <user name=hoopskirts> (05)

[personal profile] trashmouths 2017-10-20 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I'm gonna be a ventriloquist. And a DJ. and a stand-up Comedian. [ He's doing it again, pushing, not believing--it has nothing to do with the other being a girl, though, and everything to do with the fact that it's just how Richie is, how he'll just keep pushing no matter what.

The truth is he's a little jealous. Seeing someone that dead set on something, that sure when they're only a few years older reminds him of how precarious his own life is probably going to be.

But he's got his friends. He's got the Loser's Club. He'll be alright, there's a scar on his palm from a coke bottle shard and a blood oath that promises he will be. Which lets his thoughts circle to his next point: he shrugs, loose-limbed, and adjusts his glasses. ]


Not ditch. Ignore. I'm a lucky one; some kick the shit outta their kids, some mess with their heads--but no matter what not a single one is going to believe you or intervene when someone's in danger. They never do. What I'm saying is that it's totally not so bad. If you wanna be a huge fucking nerd and study so hard your tits fall off you can, now, and you no one's gonna stop you.

[ He has to do something. He has to say something. He's sounding like Eddie. Get ready for a horrible, horrible mexican accent Richie has named his Pancho Vanilla voice: ]

Si, si, if you wanna drink the worm in the tequila, now's your chance, senorita!
notimpervious: (watch me try to breathe again)

cw mentions of abuse

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-20 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can push her all he wants, but he doesn't get a rise out of her. Not in this dream, anyway. Perhaps if they had met when her family left, she might have met him at his level. She has a plan and she is going to achieve it, no matter what he or anyone else may think. Her parents believed in her, and so did her brother. She'll achieve her goals and leave behind everyone who mocked her.

His admission makes her flinch. That's what people say the system is like. There are good families, sure, but all she can think of is the bad ones. The people unfit to be parents. The ones who beat their foster kids or lock them in the trunk of a car for two days just because of an accident.]


Nothing can stop me. No one.

[She's looking at him when she says it, but it's more to herself for her own sake, agreeing with him despite his ridiculous accent. If she has to hide in her homework to survive and get what she wants, she'll do it. If she has to give up what little social skills she managed to learn while she lived with her family, she'll do it. She will be Dr. Temperance Brennan someday.

As hope starts to burn hot in her chest, the dream begins to fade away, like someone turning on a light in a dark room.]


Thanks.

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ghostlocked: the guy who's never said anything regretful in the last 18 years (srs • just take it from me)

[personal profile] ghostlocked 2017-10-17 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Harlan doesn't recognize the girl in the kitchen, and he doesn't know why she's asking him. Probably because he's the only one in the room, but it's still an unfair question. How is he supposed to know the answer to that? He's not going to lie to her.

He moves to stand next to her, like he wants to get a better look. Who are you? He listens for the car outside but he knows it's long gone by now.]


I don't know. What happens if he doesn't?
notimpervious: (code for do not disturb)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-17 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
[The whole situation is unfair. Her parents disappearing, her brother leaving... Is it her fault? Because she's such a strange kid? Because she loves science and wants to study anthropology and learn how to tell stories just from looking at people's bones? Because she's so emotional, maybe. Because she's not rational enough.

Well, she can be rational.

She breathes deep and frowns like she's angry, though it's clear she's just trying to cover up the despair eating away at her.]


If he doesn't, I have no one else to stay with. I'm a minor. I-- the state will-- [This shouldn't be hard. It's a fact. She has to be rational. Another deep breath.] They'll put me in foster care.
ghostlocked: but i would like to die naturally soon (srs • i would never kill myself)

[personal profile] ghostlocked 2017-10-18 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[That frown is familiar. He wore something similar when the police took his mother away. It was for the best, he knew, and but she was still his mom. It was scary, suddenly losing the foundation of his life like that, even if she wasn't a very good foundation. But no one gets that. He was supposed to be relieved. Maybe this girl is supposed to be angry because she's been left behind, but it's more complicated than that. That's not how feelings work.]

Yeah, they will. [He says it gently, but she's right. It's fact. He's not going to lie. He's not sure what happened to her parents. He wants to ask, but he won't. It's not important, he supposes.]

I grew up in foster care. It's not so bad. You've only got, what, a couple years to go? You'll make it.

[He's confident in that, at least. He doesn't know this girl, but if she's here, she's made it in some sense of the word.]

What's your name? I'm Harlan.
notimpervious: (close my eyes to this decision)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-18 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Two years. Maybe three.

[Her sixteenth birthday is next week. Maybe she'll be lucky. Maybe they'll place her with a good family. Then when that's over, she can move on. Build her own life. Make it so she never needs anyone again.

In real life, she would not trust someone she does not know. In this dream, though, she recognizes him somehow.]


Temperance. ...how long were you in the system, Harlan?
ghostlocked: i'm arguing with this man who can't defend himself and is possibly dead (srs • i'm not arguing with you)

[personal profile] ghostlocked 2017-10-19 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
Temperance. That's pretty.

[And familiar. Is this the woman with the fox? Temperance is hardly a common name.]

A little over nine years. It sucked, but... [He'd dealt with worse. He realizes, though, that that could be an important distinction between his experience and hers.]

But you'll be alright. [Which he can say more confidently if she's the Temperance he knows. He doesn't know her that well, but he also knows her as Dr. Temperance Brennan. That sounds alright enough to him.]
notimpervious: (the answers are sure to come)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-19 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[It is different, and what teenager likes to be different? Bad enough she sets herself apart by her hobbies and intelligence. Her name does not help.

But she supposes that's irrelevant now. Who knows where she'll end up, with what family, in what school district.]


That's a long time. It must've been terrifying. [She shuts her eyes, sighs, and shakes her head.] I... hope so.

[She'll do her best.]

You seem like you were okay too, in the end.
ghostlocked: the guy who's never said anything regretful in the last 18 years (srs • just take it from me)

[personal profile] ghostlocked 2017-10-23 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
[He shrugs.] It was, at first, but I got used to it. [He had distractions. After everything was squared away with his mother's arrest and trial... Well, foster care wasn't that bad in comparison.]

It was good for me, though. Or at least better than the alternative. I don't know if that'll be the case for you, but it's possible that it won't be all bad. [He's not much of an optimist, but in this case, he means it.]

Whatever the system throws at you, it's best to try and roll with the punches. You can't go backwards, but in a couple years, you'll be 18. You get to make your own choices from there.
notimpervious: (my thoughts betrayed)

[personal profile] notimpervious 2017-10-24 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
[She doesn't want to get used to it. She doesn't want to be in the system at all, but she knows that's not her choice to make.]

Yeah. It's... It won't be that long. [That is what she'll tell herself as the days go by. Just a few years.] Thanks.

[She may still seem dejected, but the light in the kitchen changes, sapping away the sadness, sapping away the dream.]